HAHAHAHAHAAA!!! WE'RE SO LAME OKAY..

TRYING to cover up half of our faces with this hand sign, and it's working!

REST IN PEACE ... ahas!
RESPECT ! RESPECT FOR THE DEAD....
trying out our photo taking skills, so we did alot of cam whoring
i think this should be taken by me since it's so nice... right
MY PHOTOGRAPHY SKILLS ARE INVINCIBLE!!


acting to be scared... <-- all thanks to patrick for sending me this super evil song, it haunted me throughout the whole of last night, no kidding

utterly dismayed
emo-ing..
i'm a jail bird, as you can see, more than half of the pictures, the lime light is on me.. THANK YOU THANK YOU...
KAI WEI AND ALVIN ,taken by me too ! :) best photographer of the year

look at how happy they were

ALVIN ACT CUTE! i suggested he go for a sex change since he's getting along so well with us
I'M ON CANDID CAMERA!
i'm trying out yu jin's stunt... AS WE CAME ACROSS THE TOPIC THAT KAI WEI HAD PLUMP CHEEKS! HAHS!

CANDID CAMERA SEEMS TO LIKE ME ...

okay, so i chatted with my buddies from 4pm till 10 pm. there goes my weekends and study time. as much as i wanna concentrate, i can't just forgo times that cannot be retrieved with these people. cause they're special. and i know they will never forget tonight, as marked exceptional by my new signature song, -- LEI.. " wo bi shang yan jing bu neng ru shui!!!!" HAHAAS!!!

and thanks FARAH for wishing me for tomorrow's exam, i know i will try my best given your blessings :)

and there, we saw shuai . he's so nice today. it's so unlike him. when i was trying to poke my ear stick into my earhole which has closed up, i screamed in pain as shuai patted me at the back of my neck. HE'S SO GENTLE TODAY LAH!! HAAS! and after we sms-ed, he smsed," night la, love ya, bye"

OMG, I THINK HE KENA POSSESSED. HAHAS! it's so unlike my couzzie ! normally this would be his reply, " good night ass hole"

NOW U KNOW HOW DIFFERENT HE WAS. HAHS!

Dear Sweetheart,
I can't send my salary this month, so I am sending 100 kisses.
You are my sweetheart
Your husband
Allen

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His wife replied back after some days to her husband:
Dearest sweetheart,
Thanks for your 100 kisses, I am sending the expenses details.
1. The Milk man agreed on 2 kisses for one month's milk.
2. The electricity man only agreed after 7 kisses.
3. Your house owner is coming every day and taking two or three kisses instead of the rent.
4. Supermarket owner did not accept kisses only, so I have given him some other items...........
5. Other expenses 40 kisses

Please don't worry for me, I have a remaining balance of 35 kisses and I hope I can complete the month using this balance. Shall I plan same way for next months, Please Advise !!!
Your Sweet Heart

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http://jokediary.com/2007/07/mommy-what-is-courting.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/05/trial.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/05/big-boys.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/04/3-guys-in-heaven.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/04/sense-of-humor.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/03/attitude.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/03/sex-drive.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/02/blow-job.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/02/wife-mailman.html

http://jokediary.com/2006/12/young-wife.html

http://jokediary.com/2006/09/soliciting.html

- ginny sent this to me, to remind me of him :) he's beautiful-

and there's no questions for #6 i realised. but anyway, i shall create another one

do you love #06 ? yes! i love my bun a million tons! but i hope he does too !

taking some pics to DESTRESS myself..

even more pictures...

and more....

WHOEVER IS AKI HAKALA ?!?!!!! I DON'T EVEN KNOW HIM LAH !!! WTF???

HAHAS!!

please, kill me..... HAHAHAHS !!! even i myself laughed so much... so humiliating right??!!

i shall do a better one next time. KNNN..... HAHAS!!!

we went to party world with out jia min!! =p
heh, sexy yeah?

oh it's me with the singing diva

jing is a diva wanna be. just looook at her !!

guan yin ma, learnt from jing jing!! hahas! but my hand is kinda wrong, and one look you know it's not the holy water, its my iced lemon tea. hahas!

quick, call IMH.. NOW !!!! RIGHT AWAY !! KAI WEI tried too, but the guan yin ma image just didn't suit her, she ended up looking like a fool.. :p <-- like this..

okay, we got really wild , it's mayday's song... i don't know what, don't ask me..

posers!!

heh, we decided to bully our dearest jia min who was concentrating for her A levels this year, but we decided to put it on our friendster as our primary picture nonetheless to constantly remind jia min how much fun she had missed for the past 2 years... LOL... we arent' that bad, just naughty.. =p

our bill only came out $12 per person for 4 hours. i'd consider that cheap.. :) it's so much better than wasting $3/hour playing LAN... hahas!!

seriously, i hate it when guys play computer, they just won't stop.. at least, stop for me :) then i'll love u to the core heh..

went to ikea with farah today !!! gotta go ! she bought so many things! she bought eh, 5 small jars, 2 big ones, scissors, rug for her toilet, chopping boards, a pink stool, a red rubbish bin, and, can't remember... LOL.... AND I SAW HUI XIN THERE !!!

we settled for burger king. luckily i stopped working for a year ago and is not so sick of BK's food.hahahs !!!

this is my room... !! i got a snakes and ladder carpet.. the green thing is that organiser thing, 3 boxes of shoes and my straws for handi craft.. and see the big yellow thing? its my pelican/ bird... i got to feed it with the tidbits i buy..... this is supposed to be my laundry room, but i made it my room since my original room is now occupied with my brother and his girlfriend =(

and i gave my elmo my bra.. hahahs !!!

so cool, what i need now is a table... it costs me $39... any samaritans out there? who wanna donate? feel free ya?

MY KAI WEI IS BACK !!!!

but first, i gotta go hospital. i got an X ray, and i didn't know i had to pass the report and film to the doctor, in the end i waited near 40 mins for nothing. the doc's name was Dr James Loh. he was so formal i swear. we did hand shakes, his hand was 1 and 1/2 times bigger than mine, OMG.. so he explained the whole operation precedure to me, of which i already knew after doing my own research. and i had to do MRI scan which costs me A BLOODY $300 (*&^%$#@ *& ^%

ARGHHHH......... i picked the date on a school day, wednesday when my day is most hectic and no breaks at all. can u imagine that? and i'd have to shiver in extreme cold in lecture theatres, so cold i almost experience frost bites?

of course i rather choose my MRI on that day.. LOL

OH ! OH! AND I WENT TO MEET MY SISTERS!!

kai wei just came back from china, got me chewing gum!!!!! ( my favourite kays...) , a really cute sheep made out of beads hand phone strap and mini mongolian houses, in chinese we call it " MENG GU BAO"...hahas! she slept in there on her trip in china~! so cool..

i love my kai wei !!!!!!!!!!!! oh, my jia min has become so much prettier too ! but she's forever missing, i see her less than 5 times a year. jing jing is still skin and bones... nothing can make her fat seriously.... ahahahs !!!

this is my hon ren in nerdy pants, mickey mouse t shirt, a big bag pack with a nerdy smile in my house ! :)

had camped in my house from friday night till sunday. hahas!!!

and the table full of books is where i sat, and beside me is an empty table, which was occupied by my dearest friend ginny, who never came back...

hahas ! ginny! purposely make u feel bad! LOL. JUST KIDDING !!!

and i've been told that her maid ran away from her house, that's why she had to rush home. hahs ! she always had that maid crisis. there's this once i went to ginny's house and witnessed her maid putting all the different sizes underwear in ginny's cupboard, and they were everywhere! her maid can't differentiate men's and women's underwear !!!

ginny found out when she saw a supersized panty which obviously belonged to her mother and not her....... she was so shocked i swear, = o <--- like this

then they changed maid, and the new one wasn't any better. the maid threw away a packet of durians costing $30 ++ which is supposed to b made into durian desert for ginny, but the maid thought it was rotten and made the refrigerator stink, so she happily threw it away...

ginny's mother was so angry... -_-'''

there goes ginny's durian desert.

now, another maid running away from home...!! all the maid disaster gotta stop !! poor family.. hahahs...

There's some car boot fair in YJC, what i mean by a car boot sale? it's literally a CAR BOOT sale of 2nd hand merchandise by teachers for fund raising. hahas, my honny bought me a little something. shhhh... it's a secret. hehs. .=p

thereafter, jia min decided not to ,meet me up, her classes ended very late and said she was tired. OH MANS, as usual, i found my own entertainment. to NAT 'S house ! movie marathon !!! watched dead silence, evan almighty( which i slept through more than half of it) and DISTURBIA......... ( go nat house disturb him.. LOL) and throughout, i kept eating non stop, jap cuttle fish, macdonald's fries, kickapoo, peach tea, sprite, marks and spencer's biscuit .... hehs.. i'm so like a pig i swear.

at night, oh my god, i betrayed my best friend just as how i thought someone was a close friend to me betrayed me. KNN..... i'm so angry can...

hon ren is at my house now. ate herbal chicken and we still have a slice of ice cream cake leftovers from my brother's birthday on the 29th. oh, and i didn't wish him at all. LOL, lousy sister right =(

i feel like such a failure at everything. =( maybe i should just buy a zip and sew it onto my mouth. forever don't talk. maybe that'll improve my writing at the same time.. HMMM...

had literature night today, where there's dramatic plays, and poetry recitation. cool.

went to kiara's house to make cookies ! ard 7pm and had a sumptuous dinner with her parents. got honey garlic marinated chicken wings, fish, fish balls and vegetables. so delicious right?!!

take a closer look! is it realistic ? =) does it loook like those of subway cookies? hehs...went home pretty late today. i thought it was all over between us. but u always had your way of making me smile. though not so frequent nowadays, but i certainly fell into one of your many tricky tricks, which never failed to surprise+shock+amuse me.

anyway, yesterday i had a really bad day. this fugly slut,

this one, is heniously borne, a hedious creature, i wonder why her parents released her out to scare the mass. i thought she was a school janitor at first, and i laughed at her for bringing a La Senza paper bag. HUH! an old lady, with her hormones still raging? maybe she's still trying hard because her husband is impotent. she's so shallow, i was doing my homework in her class, and she ranted, " you arh, do other work in my class, u believe or not later i confiscate then u 'll know" KNN, U FUCKING RELIEF TEACHER, HOPE U BOUGHT YOUR COFFIN, FOR YOUR KIDS AND HUSBAND THAT IS. U ARE SO STUPID, CANT I BE COPYING THINGS ON THE BOARD?? IF U HAVEN'T SEEN PROPERLY DON'T ACCUSE PEOPLE AND SPOIL MY DAY ESPECIALLY.

EFFING slut, she's too ugly to sell her body along geylang, even if she shows herself, nobody wants her. KNNBCCB........ (mailto:*&^%$#@&^%$#@*&^%$#@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

U ARE SO DESPERATE, IF U CAN'T GET YOUR STUDENTS TO LISTEN TO YOU, REFLECT ON YOURSELF INSTEAD OF BLAMING IT ON YOUR STUDENTS. i'm positively, definitely innocent. KNN. FUCK. LUCKILY U'RE NOT AS HOT AS TAMMY, NOBODY WANTS YOUR PICTURE I POSTED HERE.

i swear her lack of emphathy and symphathy and all her social skills is gonna cause your downfall beware, you will not come to a good end... cb..... i'm so fucking angry. but thanks to nicole, ruishan, kiara, laura, ginny and everybody who bothered to calm me down. i swear if i wasnt cool enough i could have hurled abuse and throw a chair to help her go to hell faster....BAD MOOD...

--- the end--- *phew

but first, before i get my share of those fun times, i'll be deprived of them until i have finished serving detention.

can u see how hardworking we are? we're so enjoying ourselves, yeo's chrysanthemum, longans i brought from home, and ginny's nuggets(she finished it).

after detention, we happily pack up and leave for orchard!!. there's a floorball competition and our friends are participating in it (Nicole and zahirah) ;) so cool right ~!

jaclyn and i ! i'm gonna be a substitute for them =)

here comes jeremy in his nike polo t and bermudas and sandals.. along the roads of orchard, yes.. he's got a fuck face right? hahas! ginny, say 'ya'.. hahas..!!! so we set off to heeren's 77th street, where ginny and zahirah did piercing at the top of their ear.. so cool ! zahirah and ginny kept praising nicole afterwards, saying she's got magic hands, because they squeezed her hands and felt as if they had all the strength and courage in the world to do anything.. LOL..so COOL... after we left heeren, it's jac's turn to pierce her 's .. here's my jaclyn, see? look at the silver one, i forgot what's that called..

i missed my jac so much ! =( how i wished we're still in the same class, nevermind, i'm joining Biopolis with you guys this tuesday ! all thanks to jac for asking ms pam ong to allow me go ! u rock !

after we left cine, nicole did something so touching. she saw this old skinny lady, so haggard and inconspicuous, sitting on the kerb, waiting for a good samitarian to save her from hunger and she just got it ! nicole, without thinking, she took her wallet and grabbed a chunk of notes from there and handed it to her, MY GOD, she's so nice, i wouldn't have noticed the old lady if she hadn't done that.. i'm so damn touched by her act of kindness.. aww...

we waved goodbye to jac and nicole, and there's only jeremy, ginny and zahirah.. we walked past takashimaya and saw this couple, making a big commotion. the lady struggled to break free from this guy, supposedly her husband, she tried to run, but she rolled on the floor, trying to run away from his clutch. in the process, even her tudong came out. i felt so disturbed, i wished i could do something to help, but even if i did went up to them, what can i do? all the four of us still discussed on what to do. but it's their own domestic problem, there's limitations to what we are capable of. so we just walked solemnly and felt so disturbed after that, wondering what would happen to them...

thereafter, we went to newton circle to eat !! stupid jeremy claim it's just a 7 and a half minutes walk from far east plaza.... fuck him la.. hahas, on the way, zahirah, ginny kept cursing non stop. i was tired but i didn't complain, so jeremy said i was his only "TRUE FRIEND" HAHAS!!! fuck you jeremy... in school u kept teasing me i got no friend.... hahas, now u no friend.. LOL....

zahirah , me and jeremy doing the see no evil , say no evil and hear no evil stunt ! hahas!!

that's e end ! went home, i'm so tired.. i wished i had somebody to lean on. and my foot felt a sharp pain while walking... it's that same old spot, i think i can't delay my op anymore.. =) it's gonna be in november.. oh no.. i hope it dosen't hurt a bit .. i'm scared.. KNN #$%^&*()_$%^&*(.

we do all the stupidest things! this is what kiara drew, and so i said, "tell me it's a peanut.." she replied, " no, it's a pile of shit".
-_-''. JC PEOPLE GOT NOTING BETTER TO DO ! i swear.... and this is our dear econs teacher, i mistook her for my school's janitor ! hahas! sorry 'cher !

and joshua 's so funny, this route is a shortcut to yishun MRT station, while we walked past, there's this stench, and given that the path was so uneven, josh commented," i feel like i'm walking in a 3rd world country!"

okay, as you can see, we bought alot of stuff, i bought 2 jars, i'm gonna give Yi Xian one, cause i remember 3 years ago, she wanted a candy jar.. :) and i bought plastic tumblers too ! and a waste paper basket for kiara's present ! kiara bought jars too, and gift boxes... so many things, maria is helping us sort it out..

we were extremely exhausted, and i thought our enthusiasm established from the start had started to decline, but josh and kiara just had to make me laugh another time !

this was how it went, u know, the shutttle bus service which serves between tampines and IKEA, is apparently FREE-OF-CHARGE. but, to my horror, JOSHUA WENT TO TAP HIS CARD . he didn't notice that that whole bus was sniggering at his stupidity already.

TO MY SECONDARY HORROR, KIARA THOUGHT THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE MACHINE AND TAPPED HER CARD ...

HAHA!!! i swear i laughed so loud!!!! so embarrassing ! hahas... can't stand them! they're so the light of my life!

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baby, if only you were here...

so i asked farah, 'where;'s the mutton?' she replied, no, there's no mutton in the first place, that mutton lembu means 'egg' I'M SO BAD AT GETTING IT, THEN WHY IS IT CALLED MUTTON ? GOTTA GO RIGHT? this is ginny and arisa, there, ginny is the black one.. LOL ! the racist attitude gotta go ! ya, i'm the whiter one, haha !!! right now ! this retarded prata boy is the ambassador of where we ate, so cute right?!

and my friend, jing kai, i was so bored i begged for entertainment. he asks, ' why cant indians eat chocolate?'

i said ' cause it's considered cannibalism' I THOUGHT I WAS SMART ! but he said 'wrong'

OKAY, so the answer was 'cause they'll bite their fingers!'
SO RACIST !

Another one,
4 indians
lying down side by side
cover then with a blanket
what do you get?

i said OTAH... but it's wrong! i tried my luck again, i said satay, but it's wrong !
if u got it right, i salute you, it's
kai kns la stop depriving me of my As says:
kit kat
i laughed my ass off !

boy, i don't want to decipher your philosophies nor profanities about how great my life has been, or whether it's better with or without you, because it's just not.
i just want you back. if only i was better to you back then.

okay, so it's lecture time, and once we stepped in, the first qns had to be " what is a discharge.. ?"

hahas, tell me, what was your first opinion when u see this? THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO THINKS THEY STEPPED INTO THE WRONG LECTURE HALL ! THEY THOUGHT IT WAS BIOLOGY ! i have no time for them..it was so funny ! since when discharge became a only-biology term? they go to start reading wikipedia to enhance their knowledge.. HAHA ...

and i got ridiculous friend.. they really made my day better. our teacher asked us how do we change flood risk.. so joshua and reuben joked, " destroy the river, then there'll be no flood !! " then they laughed histerically....... the funny part wasn't with the joke.. it's with their immaturity and laughter :)

heh, it's my birthday ! here's my cake...

NO, WHERE IS MY CAKE ? i'm so gonna cry.. *sniffs* *sniffs*

OKAY, ALRIGHT, I CONFESS, it's not my birthday but jia yu's... there, the girl directly in front of the cake showing a 'V' sign... (not the indian one)... argh... steal my limelight... i'm the one pounding rebecca's head, in case u missed my pretty face. :)

my new boyfriend.. hahas ! totally kidding, he's my family scholar, he's one of the top 5 % academic wise in singapore ! how bout that? love him to the core ! and i'm distrupting him doing homework now, i hate people like this, they made us go out of jobs ! hahas

i swear he's gonna kiss me,

kiss me honey, i won't wash my face for the next few months !

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to be or not to be, that is the question.

i 've experienced my fairy tale, i'm unsatisfied. please lord, grant me one more, and make it be my last. if i get you, you shall be my last.

this is my dear arisa eating her beef noodles greedily... YUM YUM !

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arisa, me, chen boon and jacky @ Woodlands Library !

THIS IS SERIOUS BUSINESS EH, DON PRAY PRAY !
did some cam whoring in the toilet.. see our pretty spastic faces! she's my girlfriend...

spotted this really cute guy, i got really distracted, hahas !

look at my girlfriend! she's so greedy ! fish ball noodles, hokkien mee and a big plate of oyster egg ! wait till guys see this, u'll scare them away arisa ! haha..SPOIL YOUR REPUTATION NOW SO U'LL FOREVER BE MY GIRLFRIEND.. WAHAHAHA....

So that was our dinner, chen been and jacky went off at 6pm to be in time for their NATIONAL DAY RALLY by lee hsien loong. WTH ! I HAVE NO TIME FOR LEE HSIEN LOONG ! he can talk about the development of old age facilities for an hour and praise how singapore got through the economic crisis for another hour !

tell u guys a secret, i did obediently sat in front of the tv one day to listen to it. HOW BOUT THAT ? hahas...

the sky's dark again, hope you are doing good now. i wonder, if u did once missed me like how i missed you. i need you to tell me the reason again why u left me, please hurt me one more time, maybe it'll bring me out of my love sickness. say things to hurt me now, i don't wanna share my heart between you and him. otherwise, take me away, let us live in bliss again. if u cant do that, hurt me now......

(I'm Still Not Over You)" -- rihanna

[verse 1]
Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

[verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

TAKE ME AWAY - life house

this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

don't give up on me yet
don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
but don't let
me stay here alone

this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I've seen enough and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

but that's what i always do.

一天的恋人:

蝴蝶的标本, 一如被仔细保存的风声,

我说, 再怎么璀璨的缘份, 也只是那些已经呼嘨而过的我们.

translation:

to my ephemeral lover :

the astonoshing beauty of specimens of butterflies, like a streak of wind that has been preserved so well, like the extraodinary fate between us, is nothing but a thing of the past.

and people, read between the lines, u're not supposed to read it literally,

eg, winds cannot be preserved, so it gives the meaning that my relationship with whoever is not eternal and not lasting.

eg. butterflies are creatures symbolising beauty, but it's a specimen, it's for people to keep, meaning it's just my past memories that was made unforgettable by this special someone.

figure out other meanings on your own :) literature rocks right?!

{ go to hell } 11:33 PM

>>>

today , ginny called me in the morning, when i picked up, only to hear,

" hi slut ! meet you in yishun mrt station at 1.30pm"

what a way to start a conversation ! haha ! ginny is so my bitch :) love her to bits and pieces.

i went for detention for the first time in JC. it didn't suck cause i have ginny.

i saw jaclyn, and i realised i missed her alot, wished i was in their class, JACLYN, I MISSED YOU !

so ginny and i went around, instead of studying, talked bout people, slack around...

whatever..

chatted with patrick online, as usual, asking him for favours, this time, i asked him to help me convert my music file to mp3s... THANKS PATRICK ! and i'm so totally insulted, he says he's becoming a pig like me, to eat, sleep, and shit . -_-'' when was i so terrible? i've got better things to do Pat... =/

chatted with my arisa, she started out like that, much more pleasant than ginny definitely,
arisa. says:
my peipei!!

then, not so pleasant,
arisa. says:
i heard u sent for detention today!

then pleasant again,

arisa. says:
without me
arisa. says:
hmph
arisa. says:
u went on a date with ginny!
arisa. says:
hmph
arisa. says:
jealouss

my arisa's so cute !!!

i wonder what's my Hon ren doing.. i hope he's studying.

"u've been a very good girlfriend, but i think it's better for us to stay as friends."

i'll never forget this sms i received on a august morning,

i'd listen to 'The Reason' all day long,

i ate up to 8 cones of ice cream everyday, because it reminds me of you

i'd go to bedok weekly and take the bus we took,

i'd go back to bk-ss and to sit where we used to sit,

think about the first time we talked to each other,

think about the first kiss you gave me in the cinema,

i'd look at my diary which tells me everything about what we did together,

i'd take 980 to where you played your tennis,

i did everything to relive our moments,

over these years, i'd have nightmares of that very scene of you leaving me,

even till now,

i still cant get over you baby,

please, tell me how can i forget you..

a cut so deep into me, that even gods cant heal.

u are my everything,

I WONDER WHY AM I STILL LIVING,

IN A WORLD WITHOUT YOU.

{ go to hell } 6:57 PM

>>>

went out to bugis on thursday, 16 aug, so kiara, josh and i went to meet denise who's in catholic JC now. we exchanged notes and everything. the lift in central lending library is awesome. people, dont pay escape theme park the 18 bucks... take the cheap lift , just spend $0.45 on transport .... i swear my heart dived with the lift...... so did the others.

so i bought my new memory card from sim lim at only $20. i took kiara around the shops asking for prices, in the end the first guy i asked was the one who offered the least......... (*&^%$#@

waste my time....thanks kiara, she's so sweet. anyway, she didn't bring her phone so she can't contact her parents.. apparently they went out for dinner so she cant contact them... so we went to eat KFC, windowed bugis junction, saw this big plush teddy, took a picture with it and went home. kiara and big teddy

i told her my history... thereafter, i couldn't contain my emotions which still stay embodied my soul; those passions of which i still feel so strongly for, as though it was yesterday......

'my salad days, when i was

green in judgement, cold in blood'

but i never did once regretted. this feelings will never fade, and i don't know how to tell him i love him still. but i never thought it was necessary, because i already had hon ren. and it's always best to just keep our past just as it is, bitter sweet it was, a dream come true for all girls who dreamt for something like that, though he wasn't perfect, his flaws are his appeal ..

even after 3 years of seperation,

he still gives me the butterfly flutters

that night, when i regained my composure, i slept, still thinking bout his love, which didn't belong to me anymore...

{ go to hell } 1:48 AM

>>>

ginny and arisa went overseasduring the 4 day holiday! the difference is that ginny went a little nearer to us, Genting, and arisa went back home to Japan ! okay, it's so funny k, cause arisa went back to japan just to take her exams there, so if she took this exam, even if she failed her H2 japanese, it dosen't matter. sounds cool to me...

so she got us this ! i got a froggy pencil and a coin purse, so cute ! and it's pink...

she got the guys candies ! this one, which looks like chewing gum, is not chewing gum

there's another one, which is candy floss, and dosen't look at all like chewing gum, IS CHEWING GUM. arisa's so cute !

thanks arisa ! muaccckkkks!she's my lesbian partner, so is ginny, i'm supposed to be her chinese slut, because i wear super short skirts in school, sit like a slut and behave like one??!! don't ask me why, i appear like that to her, maybe i really do ... HAHA S!!

gonna go detention with ginny tomorrow...... it sucks, my school sucks, i only had to do 1 detention but my teacher made me do 3, not because she wanted me to... oh my god...... long story, if u're really interested then i'lll tell you.. ask me about it...

{ go to hell } 1:18 AM

Friday, August 17, 2007

>>>

i'm back to blogging !

let's see, in reverse chronological order,

8 august

helped mdm selvi to sell F&N DRINKS in school. it's our national day celebration cum sports meeting. we had a total sales of $700 ++ at $1.20 per can ! kiara and i went around looking for empty cans in the bin and washed them up so that f&n could use it for their christmas project made up of 10,000 cans. laura and ruishan helped to stock up drinks into the styrofoam box. phew.... tiring mans..... my hon ren didn't come school, he claimed he wanted to study. but as usual, his lazy traits usually show up at the wrong time. he never did what he wanted to do. 28 july.

went to casurina with ginny and jeremy. had so much fun ! ate lots of prata, and jeremy likes onion pratas.. oh my god. think his fart will smell big time. thereafter, went back to school and arisa brought me to her apartment ! that condo was two storeyed. so cool! i never knew it existed, i thought only HDB has that. watched 'me you and dupree' that movie was so nice. :) played on her piano, ransacked her room.. walked around, awed by the super cool drumset arisa's sister has.... oh my god..her dinner was rice balls! they actually taught their maids to cook japanese food! so cool right! okay, i'll get a japanese husband soon....

20 july

i love my honren ! okay, recently i love this mini capsule machine so much, and when i couldn't find it anywhere, i actually called up the company, bandai ! so honren went 'capsule machine scouting' with me. from cineleisure, to takashimaya, to isetan, to paragon, to marina, then suntec..... but there were no sight of it... =(

never mind, we finally settled for a meal in this Dreyers' ice cream outlet which serves super nice waffles and with 20 different toppings ! the service was excellent too ! ideal for romancing if you want to... LOL. went home kinda late. anyway, thanks honey !

17 july

today 's so fun, but i'm lazy to blog, so i shall steal from ginny's blog and put it here !

today was fucking hilarious!

I LOVE PEIRU'S GUTS TO THE FUCKING CORE!

sorry for the vulgarities la, but still, she's so darn cute!! anyway,after school, met peiru and i left to meet farah at junction 8, and so the three of us settled to have KFC. so there we were being our-usual-selves bitching about everyone that wakled passed until peiru spotted some campus superstar guy that i think just got eliminated yesterday?

haha! so yea the whole kfc was checking him out and fuck, i didnt know him, but i just stared at him to make him feel popular. but anyhows, he settled down at the table behind us and peiru was so excited and she said, i wanna take photo with him. so she begged me and farah to join in the photo but we didnt want so i just took it for her.so after that we sat down and all, but somehow he was pretty cute and we couldnt get enough of him so farah and peiru started taking shots of him from afar like secretly. well, farah did try to do it secretly, but peiru had no time for the discrete discrete attitude and so she held the camera up so high and took a shot of him.then still, like it wasnt enought, peiru wanted to take last shot with him before we left and she wanted me and farah to be aprt of the picture for memory sake.

so yea but one person had to take the picture and so i did it and farah took the shot.then IT STILL WASNT ENOUGH FOR PEIRU! this time it was farah's turn to take the picture and my turn to be part of it! PEIRU GOTTA GO!but it was really funny, cause peiru was so cute in the midst of all these!but yea, this guy, whatever his name is, is fucking cute ((:and yes, peiru took so many pics with him but when we asked her what his name was, she said she didnt know and had to go home and check!!

NO COMMENTS!

don't mind the vulgarities... that's why i love my ginny so much ! =) time for pictures for this post.. heh..

{ go to hell } 11:58 PM

Monday, July 30, 2007

>>>

Create your own Friend Test here this is HON REN'S TEST ..... those who don't know him, don't do it okay??

{ go to hell } 4:38 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

>>>

Create your own Friend Test here

{ go to hell } 4:09 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

>>> friend test !

Create your own Friend Test here

{ go to hell } 1:37 AM

Saturday, July 07, 2007

>>>

good things don't happen for nothing,

they usually signals an arrival for something u've least expected,

this is what i call, karma.

something bad happened tonight. i swear i never want to hear it ever again in my life. and not that i'm pessimistic, but i feel that i can never be able to laugh again.

my cries can never be audible to normal people, and what i'm experiencing is not something normal people will go through. it's serious enough to force me to contemplate suicide, but i'm sensible enough to know it's not gonna help the situation. i hope my dad will make a pact with me to jump off the building together though, because he is my only worry.

i hoped i hadn't retained, for time is very important to me. i hope hon ren will reply my messages now though i know he is asleep. i just talked to him. he sounded very nice. he tried to provide a solution to it, it helped. but he hadn't replied. maybe he's gonna shut me off his life from now onwards.

u might wonder what is so serious. try pointing a gun at me but i still won't say. because i think it's a disgrace. unless i feel like sharing. i start to hate myself, for being so superficial. i hate myself that i think everybody in the world is nice. now i realise, it's just the surface. i failed to see the fugly side of humanity, utterly hideous.

i hate money. money makes people change. it alters the benign nature of humans, turning friends to foe, family to enemy. i t impacts greatly on the way people perceive of things. it is the most influencing thing in the world other than yawning. let me reiterate, i hate money.

i don't hate them for saying such hurtful things. they are not wrong. their assumption isn right either. maybe they shouldn't have accuse people. maybe they should have just discussed.

i miss my home, my maid, my rooms, my car, my toys, my piano teacher, my primary school, my life. it's now so out of reach. it's a distant memory fading faster than i imagined.

now i stay in a house, my mom, a storeroom, a toy car, notes, no piano teacher, YJC, great friends but life has no substance.

i can see myself in the near future struggling to put on the extra pounds rather than losing em'. i know what i have to do. i must do.

{ go to hell } 2:14 AM

Friday, July 06, 2007

>>> CONFESSION

first of all, i would say friday rocks !! :) just because i end school at 12.10pm !!

i really enjoyed myself today, all special thanks to ginny, farah and arisa for making my day. of course, my effin-hilarious sweetheart what i call heart-throb of YJC who always either make me swear at him or make my wanna just pinch his tender cheeks affectionately when he melts my heart by doing those little silly things little boys do.

although i hate to mention it, jeremy did contribute to a little laughter for today. by harmlessly bitching behind my back, tellin' ginny and announcing to the world i call my hon ren so lovingly that it sounded full of sexual innuendos and a trailed off with a seducing quality. THANKS FOR THAT. OH!!! .. and and and .......i also got to laugh at him for not passing his geography, math and blah blah.. he's a perfect target for sadistic people like me. :)

after school was eventful. arisa cancelled off her piano lessons while i stayed in school reading up on novels and listening to what people says. I LOVE MY HON REN SO MUCH ! he's so sweet to skip a portion of his lecture to pass me his jacket when i'm shivering like crazy in the library. OKAY, i admit i made him do that anyway. HAHA !!!

at ard 5pm, ginny, arisa and i set off to bishan to watch a movie with farah, but can you believe it?? THERE'S ONLY 2 MOVIES ON SCREEN. such a loser theatre. so we abolished the plans for watching and so while arisa had jap classes, we couldn't bear to starve our poor stomachs anymore, we settled for a humble meal at Long John's :) lets not mention a weirdo staff there who made sure every other table is spick and span. we joked he should get the cleaner of the year award.

hon ren came some time after. i'm glad he came :)

and we had secret recipe cakes/brownies/lagsagne and chatted and laugh our asses off with plenty of gossips, jeremy monkey business and just plain conversations of which the content may be forgotten but never the moment of entertainment.

going home with farah was a total joy after that arh.. i swear, honren making stupid magic tricks --disappearing of his thumb-- mocking hon ren a phedophile ( get to farah labelling everyone a phedophile nowadays, it's a trend recently i don't know why) by showing a little kid magic tricks, laughing at farah for falling for hr's 1 +1=3 trap and farah's '' you want to see me run? very fast . " witty , uproaring lame statements. HAHAHAA !!!

ALL IN ALL, i just have one confession to make. I'M REALLY THANKFUL I MET THEM. the boisterious ginny, the amusing things farah always never failed to introduce, and arisa's playfulness so influencing, the guys joel, kai heng, zhi qiang and hon ren forever laughing at stupid things which were never funnier than their laughter itself.

i don't know how to express my gratitude towards their graciousness for accepting me into this clique in the first place, thanks for the ten thousand reasons u guys have for accepting me into your life . but then again, being you guys, no reason is needed to be your friend, because i just am :) its just so great to know that.

I LOVE GINNY, FARAH AND ARISA. and a pure platonic love toward kh, zq and joel. true love towards my hon ren.:)

{ go to hell } 10:02 PM

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

>>>

more updates for activities during hols : still in orchard penthouse. okay, look, i have a dimple on my face at the right. haha ! boyfriend !

my friend of 5 yrs, hui xin !

COUNTRY MANNA GOODNESS ON 28/06/07.

scarecrow.. WHOO HOO ~~

EE... HE'S MUST BE THINKING OF FOOD...

MANNA-LICIOUS ...

okay, have a nice day..

{ go to hell } 12:19 AM

Friday, June 29, 2007

>>> relive moments during the holiday :)

IN A POSH CONDOMINIUM ALONG ROADS OF ORCHARD..10/06/07 BIRTHDAY GIRL'S HUI XIN ! THIS ANG MOH KID IS CUTE ! HUI XIN'S COUSIN.. HAPPY FAMILY:)
HOW I WISH HE'S MINE.. WAHAHA.. FORGET BOUT THE PINK GUY
SLIGHTLY BEFORE THE HOLIDAYS, HOSTING OF CHINA EXCHANGE TRIP STUDENTS. IN THE NAME OF YJC 28/04/07 ---06/05/07.
A TRIP INSIDE OF S'PORE SPORTS SCHOOLINSIDE THE HOSTEL, HERE'S WHAT IT'S LIKE A LOOK OUTSIDE THE WINDOW.. IN THE GUESTS'S ROOM..WHERE ALL THE CHINA BUDDIES GATHER IN SENTOSA, IN LINE FOR A LUGE RIDE. other pictures are not available but breathtaking sights up the sky tower is still vivid and alive in my head =p. meals for the day is provided. yipee !

{ go to hell } 3:53 PM

>>> MANGING EXAMS

today's the last day of block tests. i never felt so confident like now. i guess that's because i'm improving. i took some time to understand how my friends were coming along. i read blogs and had miny chats. i realised all of them had the same thing to moan about -- exams. they felt the stress levels intensify, only to go beyond their limits of tolerance. i understood them.

i believe it's the same with everyone, i felt everything last year.

1. when it's time to study, mr procrastination spoils plans

2. -then, ms temptation allures you to amazing cartoons( pokemon rocks !),

-dramas capable of making you cry a river (oh ! channel 8 has a new hit -kinship!) ,

-DOTA (i see my brothers 24/7 on it),

-maple story( outdated -_-'') ,

-MSN, friendster, blog (ahh - ha !),

-new recommendation from a friend to read novels, The Straits Times,

-a little trip to town for shopping(guilty),

-NYDC, Cafecartel, boyfriend/grlfriend, parties( guilty), .

-chit chats over the phone with friends...

.

.

.

3. start to indulge in self deceit -- " oh! i stil have 2 weeks to study, NEVERMIND LAH ! START TOMORROW STILL GOT TIME! "

4. when it comes to the last week, start to panic, complain ! . ... shout the word out loud , " I VERI STRESS ARH !" in an almost terrified-but-pompous tone, like it was a proud thing to be stressed, like it was something to relate yourself to others with ( you know others will be in the same sinking boat).

5. finally here comes the exam, the wretched emotions mounting when u realised more than half the paper is foreign to you, a quarter seems like you've seen it somewhere, one-eighth you know that u can answer it only if you studied for it , another eighth u feel that u are able to do it but weren't sure of the answer of which some might be wrong....

haha !!! but it's easy if you're able to purify your mind ( at least during exam periods), put away all mundane affairs and concentrate, i believe u'll succeed friend! :)

so ginny and zhi qiang, arisa and hon ren and kai heng and kiara and josh and etc....

lets work hard together and walk out of this damned school with straight As in our cert, prior to that thank the teachers who gave you the knowledge.

As for those who gave us a difficult time and doubted your ability and intelligence, hold it right in front of their face, behold their stunned expressions, stare at them as if they were criminals in jail, give em' a smirk and laugh at their folly and shallow minds, then appreciate the moment of triumph u've gained for yourself, take a second look at that teacher now wallowing in his/her mother's comfort, begging for your forgiveness on their knees for overlooking a quality student of astonishing calibre, then try to control your exploding sense of euphoria by pressing your lips tight, even after much discipline you still cant stand it but to let out the repressed feelings be announced to the world that u've done your family, friends and yourself proud.

(P.s hatred for teachers should not be reflected in violent acts, and for people like kai heng who feels like throwing a last ' fuck you ' to any one of them, it's not advisable as u don't know what mr ganesh is capable of)

HAHA !!!! ......... tell me i can be lamer than this... LOL...

{ go to hell } 2:45 PM

Friday, June 22, 2007

>>> lost my touch??

after what seemed eternity i finally found my instrument to be working again, to allow me continue to get in touch with the world and of course, friends whom i do not meet up with on a daily basis.

thank god my computer is back.

however, i seemed to have lost my touch with the key board, typing absently somethingsomthing. CORN instead of .COM. watching too much of tee-vee and wasting my day on a bed might just be the perfect reason why my brain's getting rusty.

and block test is just 3 days away. boyfriend is not helping alleviate the burden. :(

why not just indulge in some breathtaking pictures i've taken during my abscence for say, 2 months??

maybe not today. after blocks i guess.

mood swings are dreadful.

reality, worse.

expecting the future, WORST.

{ go to hell } 9:38 PM

Monday, June 04, 2007

>>>

Life has been great these days, i enjoy all the food scouting in the middle of the night, only to find oreo mini's and laoker waffles to doctor our growling stomachs.

playing playstation conquering the levels of Crash bash until we vomit blood and laugh till we drop, all the way until 7.30am the next morning, welcoming the very first streaks of sunlight on our still-not-yet sleepy faces and yawning with a horrendous odor resulting from dry, bacteria broken down overnight gaps.

kissing as a sign of our victory to the game, not to forget the traditional way to hi-five each other and smiling throughout the day.

that's for boyfriend part.

meet-ups with kai wei and xian for shopping trips, and jing jing tomorrow for a photo-shoot session would be heartwarming. looking forward to going to a condominium along the roads of orchard for a birthday party to celebrate hui xin's 19th year. getting caught up with gossips and latest movies of johnny depp-- POC. discussing story lines of charlie and the chocolate factory with school mates. celebrating jessica's birthday with koon. i got all the bestest friends in the world.

especially the k box trip with martin, hui qing and zhi xiang. WOW.!!! duper fun can??

please don't be jealous of me

{ go to hell } 1:50 PM

Sunday, April 15, 2007

>>>

woke up. wash up. eat breakfast-lunch for free. LOL.

had bubble tea as usual with the remaining tapioca to be bullets shooting at cars we hate most, passers-by and the innocent wall that's too innocently white.

boyfriend had a hair cut, spent a fast 30 mins cutting his hair while i took a stroll in shop and save making sure i'm aware of current prices of household goods. it'll come in handy when i become a housewife at a later phase of my life. its always best to start early. :)

as much as i hate to be a housewife, i'd do anything that'll please my spouse, or rather, my mother-in-law? LOL.

took a short nap. i didn't want to but couldn't help it. wasted 2 hours. wasted 2 hours that was meant for studying together. waking up to The Last Samurai. lousy show. but New Police Story was "WOW !!"

lately had been dreaming about the past. disturbing. i hate it. why? it's a nightmare.

{ go to hell } 11:13 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

>>>

today we've got our Project Work results !! :) i'm kinda happy, though i'm not in the minority of 24 excellent ones, at least i managed to get a double B in my cert already. lol. way to go peiru ! though it's anpther year in jc, i'm doing pretty fine except for the rushing through of homework and frequent quarrelling triggered by stress. consider the plate tectonic analogy my dear. sorry :)

okay, i saw my name in arisa's blog !! haha.. okay, thanks for the compliment for being a potential housewife. but deep inside i wish i were the career women and my husband taking on the role of a housewife. i don't want to become aunties. i hate the thought of that. hmm... maybe.... heh s... hon ren is eligible to the the man-at-home?? nevermind. (i can already hear him giving me a run down for insulting his masculin ego LOL... )

went swimming yesterday. merely 9 laps. oh well, only had 30 mins then the rain came pouring down real heavily, until i started breathing in rainwater when i surfaced to respirate, only then i decided to come out of the water. waited for boyfriend to pick me up as rain went pitter patter like watermelons drpopping from the sky. ( WATERMELONS? WHAT A HYPERBOLE !! LOL )

tired and worn out. it always felt good feeling weak and allowing myself into your embrace. because i know i have a permanent cot. how many people have the luxury of it? i'm counting my blessings. so should you :) if u don't have it? think of the times where he had once done something sweet. it always helps.

and i managed to chiong through my economics essay. PRAISE ME :)

{ go to hell } 3:45 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007

>>>

blogger sucks.

{ go to hell } 10:37 PM

Friday, April 06, 2007

>>>

friday was heavens, our 4m2 outing. though aliens like vincent and qi yuan was unfamilar, at least i knew their very presence in marsiling sec. hahas.

let the pictures do talking. i'm lazy to type. our outing @ east coast. :)

munching on my subway cookie on the way to east coast !! :) i swear i jumped to the sky when my darling gave me his share. haha. =p

then we stopped at a coffee shop to buy food.

the guy forever mistaken as my boyfriend. i don't want to commit incest i swear. haha.

jing jing and kaiwei. we went cycling altogether . jia min pang seh again !! :(

resting at bedok jetty :)

saw this cute thing on our way back. its promoting skating. i'm more interested in this yellow thing than i am in skating. haha

fire breaking out in marina south steamboat eatery. wow !! :) i've come to realise it's pretty common to have little fires breasking out.

i don't look greedy do it? the heat is getting me so hot and red. haha. i peeled prawn for jing and kai and my pretty cousin. i'm sooooo nice :).

the hunkies with us :) (only those who stayed throughout the day. my poor cousin had lots of time to spare. he quit his job, forgoing a $350 over pay because he was seriously harrassed by a gay manager in bossini. DON'T WORK THERE GUYS. lol.

we didn't go home after east coast outing. we went to eat steamboat from 7 to 9 ++ then went to woodlands civic centre to chill for 2 hours @ macdonalds. all the way from morning 10.30 till midnight 0030. FUN DAY. without my bunny, i did not feel empty but rather, i guess i just have to learn to be independent. JUST IN CASE. :) he's also outside having loads of fun with his classmates. i so love the respect for our privacy among the two of us. way to go !! =) loves my bunny so much !!

{ go to hell } 3:27 PM

Thursday, April 05, 2007

>>>

i've suddenly thought of something and i guess i had to take it down here.

here's what came to my mind -- boyfriends who aren't interested in your everyday life is not worth to be with, because if they couldn't be bothered, it just simply means they're not interested.

so my conclusion is, i'm glad for the frequent peeping into my inboxes checking out for my new appointments with old friends, new friends and also, checking out my blog when u remember to; of which u always do. =)

talked to arisa just now and realised we had so much in common. WE CAME FROM THOMSON ROAD BAPTIST KINDERGARTEN. woo hoo ~~ best moments of childhood spent there. and her sister and my brother's friends got some connections. omg omg omgomg.. i just can't stop the bitchy-ness and the high-ness when we talked about it. i shouted and exclaimed in extreme surprise in canteen today. i swear i made people turn their heads. haha !!

sorry for flaring up with you today. and thanks to boyfriend for kope-ing hershey's kisses from your math teacher and i'm sure u liked my little gift from me too.

thanks for the gift from heaven. no doubt, u are the gift. :)

{ go to hell } 12:55 AM

Monday, April 02, 2007

>>>

okay, i know i haven't been regular in blogging. but can't help it.

called off our supposed midnight food scouting pact. Mc coupons no longer valid as of 28 march. no cheapo deals, no macdonalds in the middle of the night. no romatic midnight walks to 888 but replaced by a good night's sleep and relieve from not putting on those extra pounds if i were to consume burgers and fries altogether. to make it worse, vanilla milkshakes that only slim people can afford to binge on.

that's for saturday night.

got a new love -- watching "my lovely samsoon" a korean serial that made me go wailing and weeping and grieving. i've chiong-ed all of it within 3 days. not very impressive but i would call it an achievement for i had forgone homework and revision during this weekend. OF WHICH I SHOULD NOT BE DOING SO.

:) i see the effort in waking up early just to be in time for train and a precious walk with me to school. appreciated. LOVES.

{ go to hell } 12:04 PM

Friday, March 30, 2007

>>>

hormonal activity has been a little aggressive nowadays, bestowing me with unsightly zits forming like dormant volcanoes erupting consecutively one after another.

how i hate pimpledays.

that's why i'm not taking photos at the moment for the fear that i, myself might be frightened like the effects of the new anti-smoking advertisement. i don't want complaints from my ardent readers.

my day has been stagnant, but i did not skip lectures today. sat with BFF jaclyn in geog class. she didn't do homework !!! HAHA !!! BAD GIRL !! U SO HAD TO STAND THROUGHOUT THE LESSON.. POOR THING ! emailed my buddy from china with hon ren in the computer lab today. he's totally hilarious la ! because he's just bad at chinese character inputing at the computer. CUTE LA ! -- gem from heaven.

after school went to northpoint to meet up with farahand jeslyn. get to us and nursery/primary school attitude. fancy us getting overly excited looking at barbie dolls/sesame street hand-puppet/spongebob letters/science kits/uno cards/monopoly/jenga/chess..................didn't get to see ginny though. sad case.

too bad i got to go choir for practise. i'm glad i had company throughout the tortuous 3 hour thing. and i had to come out of the place to see my favourite face ! Hon Rennnnnnnn !!!!!!

there we go mac-dwelling for out dinner eat-out, though mummy had cooked curry for tonight's dinner. but i shall be extravagrant to spend a little more time with you. I GOT MONEY WAD......... !!

(pei ru stop being cocky !!! @#$%^&*^%$#@!@#$%^)

so what will happend to chicken curry today? means brother bring girlfriend home to finish food up :) no worries !

( ya ya attitude right now)...

i've been conceited recently, and it's purely self confidence. too much of it though. but i'm not gonna complain. hehs. at least it does not affect me much. =p

{ go to hell } 10:09 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

>>>

i'm good with my life and everything, i don't need people to subtly hint things getting better for themselves. i don't care. and i don't bother to. it just makes u retarded as a being and i think your actions are repulsive rather than impulsive. though i think both fit the bill about you. let's just start with the irksome attitude and expression on your sheep's clothing. u're a monster deep underneath. u're a disguised fiend, u're the phantom of the opera.

and this is a note for guilty(if u think u are):

if u think that that FIENd, IS SO INNOCENT, SO NICE, so everything u think is real, i would not stop you from being so superficial and shallow. =) maybe i'll just get on with my life.

---real irritated---

{ go to hell } 2:46 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007

>>>

rantings of a grieved girl

sometimes we're good, sometimes we're bad.

sometimes u're repentant, sometimes u're just stubbornly slothful, indifferent, and

forever procrastinating.

i am putting in 101 % of effort in changing u to a better being,

apparently it's not appreciated. maybe u do but i don't see it.

i see you checking out another her.

i am green with jealousy.

jealousy an emotion i bother not to obscure. for i want it to seem prominent that i care.

all in all, i just have a question, do you really have feelings for me?

{ go to hell } 11:07 PM

>>>

day started off on a bad note. and i wonder how long this unfortunate curse is gonna uplift it's mentally challenging spells.

first, there were no buses coming my way, despite my early arrival at the bustop only to find a slight jamming at the causeway. i'm LATE therefore. scurried to school with fear of meeting the big character, GANESH, as my skirt is not of appropriate length. taking my time to make sure i arrive school after G has left the podium, and is out of sight. yes i made it, but another incident bode ill.

two, betrayal from FAT BITCH ELIZABETH. need i make myself more clear? a day on drowsy pills had invited unecessary wastage of time having to see teacher about sleeping in choir practise. my fault for not clearing the air. but then again, i was TOO WEAK to do so. BRAINLESS COMPLAIN QUEEN, u hypocrite, NO WONDER U'RE LABELLED A

FAT BITCH. it's RIGHTFULLY YOURS.

three, constant neglience. i won't bother to elaborate further. claims about going home early to study for mock chemistry SPA, ended up in a pack of lies -- loitering around in northpoint, ended up sleeping soundly in bed. EVEN efforts to wake u up from your sleepy state turned to naught because of your 99.99 % reluctance to improve yourself. explanations? u've been robbed completely of that. I would hear nothing. NOTHING FROM YOU IS VALID. where is the change in you as promised?

four, all the problems were aggravated as i thought of yesterdays, gravational pull of emotions were so great, tugging so ferociously at my heart strings. how i want to be forever fifteen, when i could enjoy my golden teenage years without having to face the big 'O's. and enjoy my company of four, jia min, jing jing and kai wei. my best buddies accompanied by true friendship that woud last for a lifetime.

then again, if my life was stagnant at that, i would'nt have the chance to meet martin, hui qing, ginny and gang, jaclyn, and those who made a difference in my school life. or even my boy, who is the best thing that can happen to me in my stay in YJC though there were many occasions when i was agitated, still, i could not deny my best moments were spent with him.

my valentine's celebrations, new year celebrations, and many more celebrations which might take place in time to come, will become special not because of the occasion itself, but by the people. Oh, am i still gonna complain? i hope not :)

{ go to hell } 10:00 PM

>>>

thanks to jing for introducing it, i've downloaded PICASA. collaging pictures is super fun. let's see.

what fun is it to have pictures by itself? collaging just makes events in a day look more consolidated and belonging... amazing! i would say. too bad PHOTOSHOP is out of reach.

lets just make do
:)

waiting for boyfriend to get himself done tidying while i wait and making full use of time doing tutorials lateinthenight. 2.30am i shall call. not to check up but to enjoy another 5 mins of quality time. :)

am i blessed or am i blessed? no qualms bout it .

i've just been told LOL meant not only 'laugh out loud' but also,

'LOTS OF LOVE'.

-LOL

{ go to hell } 1:58 AM

Friday, March 23, 2007

>>>

day had been easy. beautiful timetable, making gratifying music in the auditorium with josh and kiara with our mediocre skills.

but i feel depreciated. i thought i AM special, but it just suck feeling like ordinary, conventional toilet paper which even most people of lower social classes are able to afford. i want to feel like high class soft, rose printed toilet paper. only people who appreciates and have the ability to afford can have me. my price is simple, let me state : love, concern and sincerity and most importantly, appreciation. if that's too much to ask for, please fuck off.

and my toilet analogy sucked. i know it. :)

feeling unnoteworthy, might just explain my cranky demeanor for today. solely for today i hope.

cracking jokes over the lunch table with kaiheng managed to lift up spirits, but after much laughing, i was back to SQUARE ONE.

i am wrathful, and you have just incurred it.

{ go to hell } 11:37 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

>>>

this was what teacher showed us in a talk for assembly today. lame shit. hahas.

went to town after school with jeslyn and arisa. saw doraemon guitars !! absolutely cute la !

saw this cute thing on the streets, wonder what it is??

it's a sing post mail box !!!

hon ren and zhi qiang were boasting about watching 300 !! :( i can't watch yet. ITZ JUST A MATTER OF TIME.

I'M BACK IN PRIMARY SCHOOL !! ( in marina square)

then arisa, hon ren and i went for carl's jr craze !! :) cool !!
went millenia walk..

hon ren got the GOLDEN TICKET from his first WONKA BAR !!! congrats !! hahas!! look at his sickening face?? i shall have a wonka bar too !

secretly bought honren a wonka bar, but he found out. damn it.. :( totally thwarted my suprise plans. i should have guessed his head was way above the candy racks looking toward my direction when i'm attepmting a stealth-payment; unlike me, i could barely look over the shelves. no wonder he knew about it -- because i THOUGHT he could see me IF i couldnt see him. DARN !

in the end, i had him to act ignorant. so he just went, " u're up to something i don't know what. " and " can i buy a wonka bar before we leave?" and i had to act like a baddie, not allowing him have his wonka bar. LOL ! hilarious !

{ go to hell } 11:50 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

>>>

swensons yesterday was salmon baked rice, fish baked rice and chocolate indulgence in chilled form -- ice cream !! . walked around bugis street. eating hawker centre food -- claypot rice, carrot cake, duck rice, ice jelly and grass jelly drink makes me forget those occassional tiffs in the very morning resulted because of a moment of impatience.

gratified that u made so much effort to make sure we're alright. made it a point not to pinpoint but to improve together. she is not an obstacle.=)

pure justification of us. :) loves.

can you feel e love tonight?

{ go to hell } 1:12 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

>>>

went to watch dance works !! it was awesome. jaclyn was the third group. she did great! thumbs up! together with farah, jeremy and zahirah, we awed and critiqued the dancers, went to toyrus, ate at long john's for 2 hours because farah was a slow eatern and we were so on the dog having menstruation fact, of which many jokes we came up with minutes later . jaclyn joined later and shopped for farah's tights, looked around for a suitable shoe for me but failed to.

in the night went to borders to look around. i was stuck at the stationary corner busying being facinated with the array of colourful notebooks and boxes. missing hr, hoping he would come for the whole day.

wanted to eat mac donalds but i fell asleep in your warm embrace. too late for anything but fried rice, fish and chips and rojak near the neighbourhood. i felt happy when u are happy.

love it when our pupils just meet and say nothing to each other, letting time freeze right then, living in our own world of silence with gallons of love floating around, not being able to see it but feeling its presence would suffice. thank you, my couch potato.

it was an accident i understand. and even in the days to come, there would be more and more accidents like this. all we need is a little bit more of communication and understanding, giving and taking. whatever it is, i was so touched you singing to me that song. i appreciate your piggyback efforts to pacify.

you are a god sent jewel. i'm alice-in-wonderland.

{ go to hell } 11:37 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

>>> farah's last day

went to school late today, for the fear i had to go to serimbun camp by force. first thing i met up with the new 128 class people. cool. they were so nice. then went around with ginny and farah, opening of farah's present, she was so touched she cried. her goong soundtrack, a optician mug, a doraemon pencil. :) good luck in optometry girl!


get to kai heng and meddling around with the mini guitar model. just look at how 'rock' the cat has become after being touched up on its fur. boys, *shakes head*


then we waited so long for hr to finish his english essay. before we go to town to collect ginny's handphone. yay !! so fun !! but in the meantime, we went to mc donalds with cynthia and kaiheng to play poker. :) so fun.

in wisma, chat, played with playstation in the sony's showroom, PSP, after half an hour or so, finally it was ginny's turn ! woohoo ~~

rushed back to school only to find YJC'S jam and hop a failure. sad. poorthing.the place was merely an airconditioned big and dark room with a few pathetic groups of people forming circles dancing in their cliques with OGLs on stage having the time of their lives hopping around childishly throwing pices of shreded paper on top of each other , waving 2 or three lightsticks, thinking that it would liven up the atmosphere but it did not. i was so disappointed.

went to prata house. saw joel on the way. invited him there. i ate sardine murtabak and cheese prata. hr ate egg onion and plain. joel ate double egg and chocolate prata. hahas. cheap la ! better than casurina ! lol... kai hengt and cynthia came some time after. drank free soft drinks, played poker. winning $2.50 from joel and losing $2.40 to kai heng and kaiheng losing $1.50 to joel. me and hr still won 10 cents. haha!i had so much fun. so did hr. :) thank you.

{ go to hell } 9:58 AM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

>>>

yeah !! i'm a slacker OGL !! cam whore gotta stop ! martin who never manage to get a proper face. he never knew what i meant by a proper face. maybe because "proper face" is not registered in his dictionary. it was a made-up anyway. his features are forever twisted and distorted. phew. took some time to get my proper face i expected. ginny, arisa. jeslyn and others wen t town. i also wanna go ! but too bad, can't, tied down by duties of which i did not perform.

irritated with bitches who act like they are some big shots in school. i'm not feeling your authority. i'm not gonna respect 'action' people.

{ go to hell } 12:14 PM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

>>>

okay, supposed to go orchard with jeslyn and arisa. however over enjoying ourselves in Casurina has forced us to abort plans and go ahead with fun.

members: jeslyn, arisa, hon ren, joel, zhi qiang and i !!

we're damn big eaters.

joel: double egg thosai + plaster + milo dino

i : egg cheese + shared sardine murtabak + teh tarik

jeslyn : shared sardine murtabak + plain + egg onion +teh tarik

arisa : cheese murtabak + milky

zhi qiang : forgot !! haha

hon ren: plain + egg onion + cheese + teh cino

bottom line is, we ate alot !! hahas... and not forgetting jokes over the table. what kai heng play digimon under the table. if u don't get it it's okay, maybe it's too stupid only we would understand. haha.

then it was time to go orchard !! bought my mango top and my shorts !! yipee !!! ate an ice kachang on a cold day. KEWL..

peiru the bunny and hr the elf !! hahas. random disguise in spot light, searching for ourselves an alternate identity we are cute in. but i think my attempt was a disaster. more like a erm... casino bunny girl?? haha... nevermind, it was fun. hilarious day.

cried on the streets. don't ask why. emotional tendency down here.

{ go to hell } 10:21 PM

Monday, March 05, 2007

>>>

hugged, standing by the window,

looking at the scarlet sky, hues of blended red, orange and purple and blue.

looking at people like ants sprawling on the ground several floors down.

looking at buses go by.

hearing the sounds of nature.

it was romantic.

warmth, love and silent communication going on.

and it just went on forever.

it will. =)

{ go to hell } 1:13 AM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

>>>

serimbun campsite in lim chu kang... for the purpose of orientation for OglS...


Sophie and i !kiara, my new friend in my new class.. she's so cute !!

toilets there don't stink but still, it's disgusting..


preparing for orientation for the new intake, however dosappointed that we wen there and wasted a few hours of time, primarily because activities weren't planned beforehand and boring of shouting "YJ oei" for a thousand times, especially when nobody cares to reply her.

no cheers, no motivation, no mood. we just need a bed. to sleep on of course.


a day wasted was explained as " the test of perserverance" My toes. my leg, my foot !


nevermind about my unfortunate experience over there. i managed to have a little bit of fun talking to wendy, sophie and kiara though. i should have brought picnic food to share with them. thanks sophie though, for being so sweet to share with me her ham sandwich and biscuits, otherwise i would have died of starvation and boredom.

most importantly, i would be haunted by guilt. guilt of deleting pictures from hon ren's phone. pictures of memorable value. value from the experiences and times that cannot be retrieved anymore. times that had been washed down history a few months ago. a few months ago where things had not been the same. when things had been less complicated and enjoyable.

bottom line is, i had taken away these from him. i had just taken 20 days off his memories-- the china pictures.

i had never been so sorry for this long. he said it was okay. he took it so lightly. i wont believe. if it were me, i would have killed someone....

{ go to hell } 6:58 PM

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

>>>

what a JC girl would do if she was super duper bored...

joel was taking it so easy.. hahas !!! comical la !!

celebrated joel's birthday together with arisa's. super fun. joined new class and teachers were quite okay. hmm.. i can't give bad impressions anymore. hahas... must be a studious, lovable student ! =p

slept and lazed around in bed. wasn't productive.. hahas.. my goeo project needs to be handed in badly.

{ go to hell } 1:30 AM

Monday, February 26, 2007

>>>

dinner at banquet and these narcissist behavior after food is so the right thing to do to make way for food down the oesophagus and whatever digestion processes taking place in my stomach.

jeslyn and i , besties since china trip. she's got the nicest, friendliest smile ever. dunch'ya think so? love ya dearie !!

i'm doing kinda well in my new class, some sort of bonding with kiara and joshua. nice people !

{ go to hell } 11:15 PM

>>>

to all the "small" people around me.

my posts are getting superficial and mundane, it's not as if life has not been great but it could be even better if i could choose the option of not living under wraps,

Only if i could live for myself.

bonus suprises comes along; thankfully the suffocating criticisms is making you looking lesser than u appear to be, putting me in a better light, making me much superior. i don't in the least need that anyway. your doings have backfired. i'm not happy that u are such a monster but, my condolences to people around you.

stop the small actions. =) highly appreciated.

u live far far away. though i don't get to see you everyday, u got to stop the hassle of harrassment. i close my case. ;)

cause' i'm forever happy. it would take you trillion of years to make me fall.

if you want to see me really down, try harder.

{ go to hell } 10:07 AM

>>>

in the maglev train of Shanghai A wave of melanholia sweeps past and sets me thinking again.

i need to go back to the past again, to relive those memories impacting so deep in my life. it was only a 20 day trip yet so memorable. having the time of my life, and having the love of my life. i woud cry.

and i just did.

24 feb out in orchard was awesome. bring laughed at for not being able tip toe high enough to watch chingay roaming the well -lit bustling streets of orchard invited spasms of laughter from you. irritating but we enjoyed ourselves though. thank you bestie. got my shorts from 77-street. i need another one from 37 dregrees. that shorts was looking high class and waiting for me to grab it... heh heh...

that's anoher 75 bucks gone.
still have enough for a pair of shoes and few more tops !! yay ! =p

{ go to hell } 2:47 AM

Sunday, February 25, 2007

>>>

23 feb !! went orchard after failing to apply for poly as registration had closed. well never mind then. went on to CK tangs to try on undergarments in these high class fitting rooms. kai wei and i .. jing still busy trying on ..hahas..

i myself got a $55 mango top . yay ! pretty ! bought kai wei her $69 as present. we love you kai wei. and the sales girl at MINK, recognised me straight away when i went back to collect the bag on the 24th.. haha.. " the pushing $$ to one another girl right??!!" hahas.. but i was too different in casual and uniform. luckily my face is one of a kind.

self obsession right now.

{ go to hell } 3:39 PM

>>>

22nd feb 07

when i really needed someone, he was there !! thanks martin ! for accompanying me to TP apply for poly !!

treating me to bubble soy bean as compensation for being late. hahas. i know u didn't mean it. thanks for being so sweet anyway..

eating our western food nice !

after that, martin went his friend's house bai nian and i went to century square to find jessica and yee koon came down to accompany us !! my friends are all scattered around singapore i swear. hahas.

bought a top from pepper plus, one from flower power, and 2 abercrombie t shirts !!

i got all the cheap deals .. woooh oo !!~~ yippee !! all thanks to my ang pow $$ it's ever flowing. i get it from the weirdest relatives some of which i never heard before ! haha. went home very late. decided not to go school tomorrow =p

{ go to hell } 3:25 PM

>>>

17 feb 2007

in 2nd aunt's house celebrating chinese new year !~!! yay !! ang pow super alot ar !! won't tell ya how much.. but it's more than enough for 3 months of pocket $$ i swear.. it's get better by the year i swear.. haha... and so i went super alot of shopping !!!

steam boat !!
cousin's and bingeing lot !!

rest are watching tv.. enjoy life mans....
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21 feb do CIP in yishun..
in school i gave you a card.. =p love ya ! but i got to change class.. sad sia.. damn sad.

and when i feel like crying, i cam whore in toilets.. weird habit.. haha
taking food for elderly..

{ go to hell } 2:53 PM

>>>

JOGATHON DAY , 16 FEB !! HON REN LA... WOKE UP LATE.. IN THE END I ALSO LATE, STARTED 7.45 AM , REACHED THERE AT 9.15 AM !! CHILL AROUND , ACTUALLY WANTED TO CELEBRATE JOEL'S B'DAY... BUT IN THE END, EVERYONE HAD TO GO HOME. in the end left with jeslyn and i !! woo hoo ~~!!

dinner at ramen ten..

we ate everything !!

i'm at ramen ten !! not in the MRT !! haha

jeslyn bought 2 pair of shoes, a topshop top, a necklace.

i bought a top from forever 21 and a necklace to go with it, plus a tube net.. yay !! $$$ gone !

i still got chinese new year back up.. =p

something extraodinary happened to me !! for me to know and for u to find out ! only besties know. love ya !

{ go to hell } 2:39 PM

>>>

bouquet of long lasting paper roses, hopefully termites won't get to it though. *laughs*

14 feb 07 ' filled with lots of love and prezzies. these little gifts made my day, especially when it comes most unexpectedly.

and this year, it came along with something i love most.

it's a special year. with a special unexpected gift. and the gift i love most.

along with the confessions a few days ago. should i go ahead? u're real..

{ go to hell } 2:24 PM

>>>

13 feb is going to IKEA in tampines with jun wen and jaclyn !! in the bus, we openede the door ourselves but bus uncle didn't know, he was so agitated that someone opened the door i swear. lalal ~~~ guilty ?? a little.. never mind...

super suah ku can? condiments in moo moo~~ milking system form..

jun wen aspire to become CEO of IKEA and remove all mirrors self obsessed beings.. like us

buay ta han !!

had super duper lots of fun again !! why is my life so fun !? tell me can?? !!! haha

{ go to hell } 2:11 PM

>>>

12 feb 2007 in wisma atria jac and i in republic toilet saw kai wei when we were shopping for ginny's valentine's present !!!
pretty !!

{ go to hell } 1:51 PM

>>>

today is CVD DAY , 10 FEB, THE GUYS ARE CARRYING SPONGEBOB TO SCHOOL !!

MARTIN IS PAYING $5 FOR THROWING AT ME !! I JUST HAD TO SACRIFICE

MARTIN AND COUSIN SHUAI HAVING FUN AIMING ME.. =(

I PULLED JACLYN IN, THAT'S WHAT BEST FRIENDS ARE FOR U KNOW, IDIOT SHUAI, SPLASH WATER AT ME, HE NOT WASTING EVEN A DROP OF WATER I SWEAR

ME ATTENDING TO KIDS, I'M DOING MY JOB K..

BROUGHT KAI, JING AND SHUAI TO C4, CHIT CHAT FOR HOURS !! HAHA.. I TOU LAN.

best friends and cousin, *muacks* love ya guys !!

jac and i !

this is how everything looks like

i got an unexpected present ! from ...

faith !! wendy !! u're so sweet my dear ..

9 balloons from hon ren !! but i gave one to jaclyn, chien lan and chien lan's friend ... so i'm down with 6 , share the joy !!

a rose from him too !

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today i really enjoyed myself. had fun going around the funfair.. felt so remembered by my dearies.... awwww.... i'm a happY person. after CVD, my cousin came from orchard to pick me up !! so i didn't leave with HR. WENT TO COUSIN HOUSE FOR STEAM BOATING !! WOO HOO~~~~!!!

IN COUSIN'S PLACE SING SONG TALK COCK PLAY MAHJONG... SUPER FUN DAY CAN??!!

super nice food from the pot and pan

{ go to hell } 11:09 AM

>>>

lets start from 8 of feburary then... hmmmm , what did we do ? draw spongebob..upon completion..not yet !!yay !! finished painting @ 10.30pm...

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on 9 feb, friends getting o levels results !! my heart jumped with anxiety, hoping that BFF and others gets what they had hoped for. she got 19 points, she was saddened and so i cooked pasta as she comes my house to finish up last bit of spongebob.i bet she loves it.. =pfinished spongebob !!! hahas and that's me with my sexy pose, haha

phew, it was super duper hard work and we only got to sleep at 4 am. =( but i was glad we made it anyway. discarding cans game.

{ go to hell } 10:50 AM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

>>>

hi people, after ten thousand years of abscence, i'm finally back !! due to my internet breakdown these few days, i hardly had the time to source for alternatives to post for there's no alternatives.

spent time , sparingly but not unmeaningful. days filled with care, love and concern from relatives, friends and those special people who made a difference to my life appeared before me these days, plus the new super duper nice acquaintances who had already become my besties.

2007 has been a excellent start for a year like this.

i couldn't ask for more.

just hope that i wouldn't screw up my blessed fate.

saying "i love you" just had been so easy for me to say these days. bountiful of it around me. *winks*

my life,

i'm loving it. =)

{ go to hell } 9:30 AM

Monday, February 05, 2007

>>>

friendship like this must be treasured. =)

today started off with most discouraging chemistry test. aiyoh !! headache la !! maybe i'm never a science person. so my day was practically spoilt. i felt like a retarded in pressence of sciences.

sorry hon ren. u have taught me well, but i still failed you. i was so encouraged when u said, " as long as you've tried your best okay already, later i give u present."

since i'm getting something, i also worked hard during GP lesson and earned a caramel sweet, gave him together with a new chemistry periodic table to make HR in the mood to study more willingly. it works psychologically, " yay ! got new periodic table, means must make full use of it and work hard, " haha.. LAME SHIT.

audrey trying to force us call IMH..pontianak wanna-be.. haha...

after school, met martin and faith.

faith, me and martin ! the girl's a model !!

time with martin is never boring..

in the dance studio

then it was dinner with HR. waste time. hot fudge delights again. told me green ping pong ball joke. haha... funn.. strolled around the all time favourite causeway point. and bus-stop fun was overwhelming. WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY FUN FRIENDS? HAHA. I AM SO BLESSED.... ! *muacks* friend.

so fast, i've already gotten my first valentine's day present... don't envy me girls. =p

even as i sleep, i smile in my dreams. i've long forgotten what are nightmares when i'm leading a proper life right now.

{ go to hell } 9:50 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

>>> spongebob sensation

yesterday was fun with hon ren !! he came to my house and i cooked for him !! haha .. all these housewife housewife traits is showing up within me..?! wahaha... whoever marries me will enjoy guaranteed good food and quality time with me.. okay, mr lucky guy, where are you?

"hon ren and this housewife attitude gotta stop.."

fish, eggs and veggie. fish was super salty.. haha..

and now, i found out that no matter how hard a country boy try to match up to the royalties, it's only a temporary disguise. i'm sorry but u are too lowly for me anyway. =) especially after what you have done, it just goes to show how shallow and low class you are. need me to explain much? i can't even bother to.

told my brothers and friends how guys degrades themselves with stupid things they do, they just went, " country boys are like that, just laugh at them. they are humour themselves."

encouraging circle of people i have. loves em' . forgetting about you is easier than it seems before right now.

Anthony and his lousy humour gotta stop. at first he says i am "loh soh", meaning naggy in english.

i replied, " that's why my surname is 'soh' "

he says, " so your first name is LOH, which makes you " loh soh pei ru. L.S.P.R"

and he goes, " Little Sexy PRincess"

haha , so random..-_-'' .

and so the girls came to my house today again to do spongebob. had calamari, nuggets, hotdogs !! woo hoo~~ and 5 types of tidbits !! and jelly !! wow !! come to peiru's house and get yourself fed !! put on some weight NOW !!

ended up slacking big time

jac and my birthday presents from last year.

it's a one metre thingy

loving my elmo
and so i spent my day rushing assignments, do spongebob, talk cock sing song play mahjong, chat with anthony, deline, martin, kin yew, hon ren, jac again... PHEW. busy !! busy !!

rushing assignment in my house.. hor hor..
talking about martin, i miss you brother =). shall fulfil our promise tomorrow. share secrets and sing and gossip will be our favourite pastime ever. i've got my life story to share !! haha... got new news again !

and ginny too ! u're super caring can !! love ya !

kai wei !! best buddy.. meet on 10th feb !! my school ! *muacks* baby.

{ go to hell } 11:35 PM

>>>

"while u slog your way in the sea, i wait patiently at home for your honoured return like an old lady."

i used to say that, but now i don't. it had been only a few hours before i realised you're not that great as i've viewed you afterall.

at least i've got super caring friends and a wonderful family and relatives. i 've pulled myself out of that bottomless pit long ago. and like i said, it's easy for me to forget about you. =)

i used to say i miss you. and i won't deny i really did. neither will i destroy evidences of my longing for you in here. but whatever it is, i have nothing to hide while you're always acting like some thief, hiding around the corner stealthily, doing things which are not morally approving.

i thought i would be sad. but i'm far from feeling despondent and grieved.

maybe mummy was right. at this age, before u guys go for NS, u're all BOYS. let me quote ginny,

" all these childish childish thing gotta stop .. "

i could still laugh at the fact that you was with her yesterday.. haha.. =p

at the end of the day, you guys wouldn't last, so why should i care much?

u'll end up with nothing.

{ go to hell } 1:33 PM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

>>>

i'm super worn out.. PE time had to run 1.2km round school tracks, and ran along the circumference of school... damn hardwork, luckily YJC is not HWA chong institution. haha, if not i'll die. and plus muscle aches from yesterday's 2.4, i'm dying from aggravated muscle aches all over my body. i walked up and down the stairs with utmost difficulty, and i walked like a fucking crippled. i couldn't bend my legs, nor my stomach. wobbly and felt like collapsing on the floor.

was feeling grumpy all day. ginny and guys were cracking jokes. they were funny, but i couldn't laugh at all. and they asked me why am i so solemn the whole day, what's troubling me, i said, " i cannot laugh, stomach muscle aches.." THEY LAUGHED BLOODY LOUD.. HAHA... i couldn't take it, i laughed too. *OUCH*

who cares about me more than you did? wish u were here.. daron, i'm talking about you.

hon ren did this to my hand !! damn bad la !! the left eye is my mole !!! haha

face of satisfaction..

went to causeway for dinner, and went to buy ice cream !! hot fudge rawks !!, then as we walked out of Mac's , hon ren says , " u want balloon??" i say i want !! HR says "give me 5 seconds, " then he went back, not even 5 seconds, he came out with a black balloon !! i wan so damn happie la !! haha... yay ! got a balloon... (he stole it from the ice cream counter)

at causeway !!

i played happie b'day song for him on the piano in school. =) touched ? haha.. being fed with ice cream, talked until its 0025, before i took the last bus home. KEWL (cool)...

{ go to hell } 1:48 PM

Thursday, February 01, 2007

>>>

in the afternoon, didn't celebrate HR's birthday with him today... my girls went to my house to get some serious things done...met up with cousin shuai and weng guan too !! on the way to my house, collected alot of cardboard to work on

i bought all these for them to snack on !!

just look at how greedy she looked at the thought of tidbits.. -_-' getting down to real business...

some cam whoring has to be done somehow... despite all the busy busy schedule...

and it's snack time !!

cheezels kebabs !!

and our very own invention of marshmallow cheezel mushroom

and so jaclyn, hui ling, petrina, hui yu and i mugged thw whole day on cardboards, our preparation for fun fair on 10th of feb.. COME TO MY SCHOOL PEOPLE... APPEALLING FRIENDS OUT THERE.. =) jaclyn was last to go home, sent her to bus interchange at around 10pm.. damn late la.. !! and she stays in a far away land...poor thing.. =)

there goes my evening, an enjoyable one though. this sunday girls, we shall meet up again. tons of unfinished homework piling up ...

{ go to hell } 1:45 PM

>>> hon ren 's AND FARAH;'S b'day

STAINING LUCK OFF BIRTHDAY GIRL, DESMOND JOINING IN FUN

P25 HAVING HELL LOT OF FUN

GIRL GANG GOTTA STOP

slept damn early last night and woke up at 6am today !! damned it, have to go for make-up pe lessons. i went to school in pe shirt and shorts, i swear i look like some secondary student going for TAF club morning exercises. haha.. not that i'm condemning them but i really look like one. tried to make my shorts as short as possible, and tuck out my shirt and almost everyhing to make myself not to look like a TAF club member. I ENDED UP LOOKING LIKE A SCHOOL DROPOUT. i gave up.

honren's and farah's birthday !! didn't give hon ren his celebration today though, i wasnt in his class. but i certainly had to do it for farah. took pictures with birthday girl in a bid to stain some luck over to myself. haha. (i noticed my own paradox.. stain luck.. haha). shall post pictures after i leave school. phew, school today sucks. wasting time here. i got 4 and 1/2 hours of break. hmmm looking forward to the afternoon when everybody's coming to my house to do preparation for funfair.

birthday cake !! happie b'day farah audrey and i ! school canteen area...

{ go to hell } 1:41 PM

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

>>>

fuck la !! i'm so stupid !! i accidentally deleted all my tags !! fuck fuck fuck ...............i'm so angry with myself !! i just can't seem to do anything right... why !! all my memories are inside lor !! =(
=(

i miss you very much

{ go to hell } 11:51 PM

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martin ; Just the sound of your voice , makes my heart melt. dancewithmartin.blogspot.com says:
hahas wah. love. hahas. yea i love u too.


martin ; Just the sound of your voice , makes my heart melt. dancewithmartin.blogspot.com says:
peiru's the cutest girl on earth , and cutest human alive, after martin.

haha... this was what martin tells me !! =p girls, don;t get jealous if u're an admirer of martin... but we're bests friends.. heh heh... martin !! miss you so much can? got so many things i want to tell you. i am sad. I'M BROKENHEARTED.

school was dry. but ran arund the tracks with jamie. she's also down. i don't know how i could help her but well, if running makes you happier, girl, i'll run with you everyday. =)

had school till 7.30 pm..but i only reached home at 9pm !! accompanied HR. tomorrow is hon ren's b'day. nice!! happy birthday budd !! farah's b'day too ! shall go out someday to do shopping for honren's prezzie.. tired.. tomorrow got penalty. got to reach by 7am for PE lessons. damned it. f** ..(*&^%$#@@#$%^&$#

{ go to hell } 11:16 PM

Monday, January 29, 2007

>>> a monday like this

lecture still take pic... -_-''

we changed uniforms at the spur of the moment.. jaclyn was like " hey !! lets change uniform!!" and there we go !! jaclyn sure love spastic shots okay, transformation complete !! jac, audrey and i !! cam whore in toilet..i swear she loves my uniform..

such a hunk ain 't he ??

martin an i !! cutest guy and girl on earth !!
only this side of my face can make it i swear


after a day of feeling like A CHIJ girl, i feel extraodinarily feminine. however, i still get my occasional monday blues, in fact, i suffer from depression everyday. even as i close my eyes, tears are welling. at the back of my head, a scream is yelling, " why do you give up? " i answered it, " because he no longer care anymore.. a fat, warm drop of tear landed on my lap, like a grieved girl landing on the high rise floor, and blood squattered over the floor. GOSH ! I'M SUICIDAL.. THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING....

super sad, so found hon ren and went eating. talked about our hectic schedule. talked about people. talked about documentaries. bought bubble tea and went to north point for a walk to ease my soul.

when we were at popular, we suddenly suggested to " get some business done" haha, in the end we are supposed to take a pictorial evidence of shitting. if we don't have it, we don't come out of the toilet as it's supposed to be some competition. fun la !! never done thius before with a friend??!! haha.. but in the end, even b4 we could do it, the automatic flush system activated itself and flushed our " cake" down. oh well, there goes all the fun.

without him, i wouldn't know what could i do to make my life more colourful, especially in school. hon ren best buddy. always.. =) he was always there when the skies were dark and the clouds were grey. always there when the wind blew hard. he is my emotional support. what would become of me if i hadn't had him?? =)

platonic friendships are simply the bests of all..

{ go to hell } 10:31 PM

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i almost kissed it.. haha

my favourite cousin is gonna get it from me !!
he's angry that i haven't looked him up for ages


missed those childhood days !!

double cap sensation.. he thinks it's cool.. haha

i love him !!!

lousy face.. haha.. !!




phew, went home late at around 12am ++!! realised that cousin shuai was there! i was excited ! played piano with hijm while he sang, fortunately neighbours weren't complaining about our late night quality time.

we talked about girls and boys, talked about my miserable love life and his newest crush. i love my cousin mans... luckily i got someone to direct my attention to, and my extra time and affections.

day today with deline, daphne and anthony was fun. stupid stunts about running across the water fountain in bugis was crazy feats. i lost in scissors, paper stone and had to be retarded and all. haha.. had $4 jap ice cream of which i rather have my share of ben and jerry's. i'll just had to make do. jap green tea ice cream for a change. not to forget our dinner at some thai restaurant. nice food there !

got too much gossips and girl's stuff to catch up with deline. oh well.. there'll always be next time !! =). ant just had to keep daphne entertained.

day ended by sleeping late at 4am !! and wake up at 6.30am..

hell of a day. but i felt like in heaven, only for a time. i still missed you. =)

{ go to hell } 3:06 PM

Saturday, January 27, 2007

>>>

DEDICATED TO DARON,

GARETH GATES
"Anyone Of Us (Stupid Mistake)"


I've been letting you down, down
Girl I know I've been such a fool
Giving in to temptation
When I should've played it cool
The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand

::Chorus::
It can happen to..
Anyone of us, anyone you think of
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break
'Cause I made a stupid mistake
It can happen to..
Anyone of us, say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail
Say you will believe me
I can't take my heart will break
'Cause I made a stupid mistake
A stupid mistake

she was kind of exciting
A little crazy I should've known
she must have altered my senses
'Cause I offered to walk her home
The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand

::Chorus::
A stupid mistake
she means nothing to me
(nothing to me)
I swear every word is true
don't wanna lose you

it was my fault, i'm sorry. take time to listen. listen to what i have to say for the last time. just hope you'll be happy again. i've caused all these problems, and it'll end with me.

{ go to hell } 3:28 PM

Friday, January 26, 2007

>>>

school = happy moments for me. though occassionally i would think of Him and here comes all the heart wrenching episodes which makes me wanna cry. that aside, lets see what have we done today.

cam-whoring with hon ren in library basement.

again !! haha..

jing mei is leaving YJC to A poly !! so sad.. thus, we took alot of pics..

group pic !! jing mei and i at the back, zi qiang, hon ren and kai heng

read this, from The Straits Times, 26 jan 07.

amusing .... that Kevin federline is referred to daydreaming-- while cooking french fries.. adults.. haix.. find problems to gossip about..

jaclyn and i during maths class !!

choir practise until 7.45pm !! i died there..

choir instructor had told us blonde jokes. clara told me god and buddha joke. it had made me laugh, but i'm not happy at all, even though i can still laugh. emotional burden is very heavy. very, very, heavy........

Labels: my heart is still bleeding, on top of whatever happiness i felt.

{ go to hell } 1:43 PM

>>>

LIFE'S JUST SO INCOMPLETE RIGHT NOW.

without you.

i need you by my side.

{ go to hell } 11:36 AM

>>>

a wonderful fairytale goes like this,

i asked you, " am i a victim or the fortunate if i'm your girlfriend?"

you answered, " it depends if i'm your suitor or your beau."

i replied, "what's the difference? if i'm your girlfriend, will i be the fortunate? or the other way round?"

you said, " perhaps both,"

im puzzled, and acted like a spoilt child, i requested, " why can't i just be the fortunate?"

you amaze me, u said, " fortunate is because i'd give u everything i could, victim is because u would be bombarded with unlimited love and care as my girlfriend."

give me a fairytale.

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i was traumatized. to my shock i realised there's a cat on top of my piano !! before i was goinG to leave my house for school, the cat practically stared at my with it's bloody cold stare. the thought of it gives me the chills. ran into mummy's room and screamed for help. mummy shoo-ed away the cat, and it ran away with hitting upon a piano key, " DANG!?!!" ....... i shivered. i am timid. I CRIED.

only one thought came into my mind -- wish he was here. AND I CRIED MORE.

i never wanted to be a cry baby. but it's the only thing i could do when i'm helpless and in fear. i fear alot of things, and i couldn't ecpect daddy to be always there for me. someone else has to take up the job. it would be tiring. but i hope u would take on the responsibility nonetheless. I KNOW U ARE TIRED ALREADY. I WOULD UNDERSTAND. i never wanted to be a difficult person. but it runs in my blood. JUST TAKE IT AS WHAT I AM WILL YOU?!?!?

his words hit on me real hard. yes, he is right, your best friend is right, i'm holding too tight on you. i'm afraid to let you go but and the same time, in the process of doing so, it backfires, and u're more distant than ever. my bad.

stomach flu is acting up again, persistent diahrroea in school is affecting my state of mind. i hate to admit it, but i'm weak. someone save me from vulnerability.

maybe someone just did.

maybe my fairytale has always been there but i did not receive. i'm sorry, crocodile boy.

Labels: down on luck

{ go to hell } 9:27 AM

Thursday, January 25, 2007

>>>

my day didn't start off well. woke up with a terrible stomache. suspected to be stomach flu. oh mans. *ouch*

thanks for jaclyn and ginny for being so nice to ask about me. i'm fine, just missed the class today. I'M GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW. MASS pe session CANT BE MISSED !!

i'm afraid of relationships. darling. i am sorry. but u'll never understand the pain i felt in the past, and the fear i'm feeling right now.

fear engulfed the whole of my being, i've just seen a shadowy figure walking menacingly toward me... and now, it's on top of me already... it's that near...

before i know it, unconciously,

i've just cried a river.

{ go to hell } 12:09 PM

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

>>> typical school day on 23 jan

school was hungry to start with, thus took a little snack to chemistry lecture ( oreo 's !! )

jaclyn and her tidbits ( sponsored by me =p)

my first time in the labs... i was facinated by the provision of equiptments !!

and a burette here which has a penis shape.., it's flimsy on the rubber part ( yellow segment)

urinating.. haha ( ginny drawing water out from burette)

seriously, i'm looking into the microscope.. (almost cried in school when i didn't know what teacher was talking about)

please don't laugh at me. cause i'm serious about my work, u shallow people.

when the wind blew hard, we sat back and enjoyed the breeze.

front view !

alright, enough of pictures.. well, today discussed upon a really interesting topic -- INDIANS CANNOT PRONOUNCE -th.. they pronounce with a 'd' sound rather than the supposed 'f' sound. it's not supposed to be racist or anything, but it's a fact.

evidence:

zahirah was pointing out this problem, and correcting shalini's wrong pronounciation. shalini didn't trust that "fourth " is supposed to pronounce "fofh", something like that. but shalini pronounced it as "fort" . "birthday" is pronounced as "bird-day".

totally hilarious.

so shalini decided to ask another classmate. she went, " how do you say 'fort' arh??" all of us broke out in laughter, "fort" just came to her too naturally. haha!!

{ go to hell } 9:42 PM

Monday, January 22, 2007

>>>

darling, this is a sincere plea for you to get your food right away. will love you more than ever.

with love,

peiru

{ go to hell } 10:49 PM

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my phone bill last month... a shocking 2059 messages, minus away my 900 free sms, i still had to pay $58.10. anyway, it's my dad's pocket being burnt, though i occasionally feel the pinch. haha.. . i was damn shocked la.. must conserve and control this month... shucks... total bill went up from usual $50 to $120... damn the sms..

something is protruding out of my bag.. very prominent..

it's these... audrey was like nudging me and calling , " peiru !! peiru !! " i thought what had happened... oh... it's just this... it hadn't come to my mind at that point in time that there were guys in our class..

quickly shut my bag close.. haha

sheldon eating cup noodles... not because we wanted to.. but these were the only option for foodstalls aunties had closed already.

it's sheldon and i !!! in school canteen... eating before we go for choir practise

{ go to hell } 10:49 PM

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totally absurd. rushing my GP essay in the middle of the night. shouldn't have procrastinated earlier. shit it. arghh !! depriving me of sleep and i'm having my comprehension test tomorrow morning. i shall deliver. HUMPH !!!

Q: WHAT CAN WE DO TO SAVE THE ENVIRONMENT?

mankind, in order to allow themselves indulge inthe luxury of natural resources, such as wood to make furniture and metal for construction has directly impacted negatively on the environment, leavin the world in peril.

in a bid to develop the world into a place where people could live comfortably, humans have destroyed the environment in the process. cutting down of trees for wood has led to an increase of carbon dioxide, depleting the ozone layer drastically; exposing ourselves to the harmful Ultra-violet rays as well as melting the ice caps in the north pole, giving rise to sea levels which will eventually flood low lying areas.

besides, animal poaching will also jeopardise the ecosystem. hunting elephants for its ivory husks, sharks for it's fin to fix up a delicacy only affordable to the affluent and white tigers and bears for its exquisite fur, is forcing these poor animals into extinction which will ultimately have a dire impact on the ecosystem.

furthermore, exploitation of natural resources such as crude oil and mining of valuable minerals will pollute the earth. it will leave behind flammable substances and poisonous chemicals which will pollute the oceans. oil spils would also affect the ability of aquatic animals to respire, denying water birds the abilty to fly, resulting in death of these animals.

it is vital to attend to the critical dangers threatening our environment presently, but what is exactly the problem? is it the ignorance of man's activities that will subsequently cause detriment to mother nature? or did it result from man's eagerness to develop the world despite awareness of the ensuing complications our environment would encounter? whatever it is o the above possibilities, there is a similarity we can draw from the two statements -- there is a lack of sentience for our environment.

in the short run, we can impose laws to punish poachers, eventually keeping illegal killings of animals on the verge of extinction to a minimal. we can also restrict the people from cutting down trees, protect the endangered animals and make sure people adhere to procedures in handling a mine so as to minimise pollution.

following, the goverment can also increase prices of oil and water so that people will learn to conserve, for these are precious natural resources.

in the long run, education is essential to emphasize the importance to preserve our environment it is desirable to instill such knowledge since young. governments can incorporate these knowledge in their daily teachings at various education levels, so that when a child grows up, he/she would learn to conserve natural resources or even something as simple as not to litter for a simple act of littering, if perceived as insignificant for every being, cluttered litter accumulates to pollute the environment, it will also smear the beauty of mother nature.

in addition, reforestation is also helpful in restoring natural resources a tree takes several decades to mature and wood is highly valued for it's extensive usage, especially in the production of paper. thus, it is important that we start early in replanting them.

last but not least, we can find alternative sources of energy and make use of them.for instance, hydroelectricity or solar power in place of the conventional electricity directed from power stations to our homes. oil is largely utilised in making electricity it i less cost effective as compared to using hydroelectricity which makes use of water's stored kinetic energy and energy from the sun which is entirely cost free and does not pollute the environment at all as no burning is required, thus, no greenhouse gases are emitted into the atmosphere.

apparently, there are many solutions we could apply to salvage the damages we have inflicted upon the environment and as long as we start early, it's never too late to save our environment.

lousy essay i've written. no coherence if you really noticed, various problems are being mixed up wil one another. too much information sometimes and complicates my purpose for saying something. a weak conclusion for i have no idea what to write. point it out yourselves. i'm disappointed in myself for the time being. but time does not permit me to rewrite anyway. thankfully i wouldn't pass with a lousy grade. hopefully.

unfortunately it's time to slumber. again. dread the idea of waking up in the mornings. have to drag myself up. i wish someone would be there to harrass me even when the sky is dark, to make sure i wouldn't be late for schools and to make sure i, as a class chairperson of my dear class, do not have to start the trend of going for detentions and treat it like a cool thing to do in a bid to 'save face'.

{ go to hell } 1:35 AM

Sunday, January 21, 2007

>>>

went alone to buy these. my fateful day.

i just hate to go super markets alone,

it's meant as a twosome enjoyment.

it has been a gloomy day for me.

filled with negativities.

did i just mention ?

that melancholia had just set in.

{ go to hell } 7:19 PM

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i'm am but sin itself.
evil comes to take in human form, i feel like i'm bring disaster to humanity.

i am a liability.

so much for saying so, i'm terribly sorry.
but i can't help it, i'm bleeding profusely.

i had just been a day's princess.
just like cinderella i am,

everything's turned to naught.

down in the cellar i cry,

desperately hoping for him to know why.

why am i in pain and agony.

his realisation would suffice.

then a suprise should come in right after

like a get one for one free deal.

but i've lost a thousands tears, a million hopes.

i shouldn't have pinned them so high up n the wall;

without knowing sooner or later it'll fall.

i'm perhaps just dull, naive to have thought of those,

suffering enough from unpleasant's dose.

once i was treated like a beautiful rose,

now, i'm but a rose with a billion woes.

{ go to hell } 5:59 PM

>>> late into the night

it's a quarter to 2 am in the morning, when i'm supposed to be sleeping, he just had to crack a brainless joke.

and i just had to document this.

chatting with jing kai, he suddenly asked me to help him think of a girl's name for his new born baby in the family i suppose.

chatting on msn, i bombarded him with some christian names, mostly ending with --line cause i thought it sounds feminine and nice !

i typed, " audrey, jeslyn, adeline, crystal, aline, caroline, ."

jing kai replied, " saline, " followed by , " haha".

i replied, " alkaline, "

he wittly, " methanol, " i was like NO LINK AT ALL !!

i went with the flow to type, " alcohol."

and then, what he replied next was super intelligent. i swear, i almost rolled on the floor laughing my ass off, he wrote, " cholestrol, " !!!!!!!!!!

i went, " ^*($&$%&*((*&^%@#$%"

HAHA.. SO FUNNY

{ go to hell } 1:45 AM

Saturday, January 20, 2007

>>> humans live like that

all the frustrations in the world gather.

and it picked me of all people; to haunt after.

i am exhausted,

finally got a minute to slumber.

"fat hope !" i heard a voice screaming in my head...

homework, school responsibilities is driving me to a corner.

i'm a blessed kid. under Mr daron's care. i had to ignore seng kang's advice for it seemed certainly 100% disturbingly disturbing. after all he knows daron better than i do. but i know my darling will deliver. i've got 200 % trust in you my dear.

after i did the math, it's 200 % - 100 % = 100 %

i trust you honey. i do.

after stating the 50 romantic things he did for me, i still got another list of stuff -- 50 things i like about him. wow. i could compile a book if i continue praising him.

but i just love praising you.

so what if it means to author a book? it's worth the time.

that persistent problem. vexatious. i'm losing appetite. losing faith. losing conciousness.

and people today are especially unfriendly. i don't know why. one of which affected me most was min han's girlfriend.

i came across the fact that min han was from Catholic high, thus i curiously asked through sms,

" sister, you really from catholic high school ar !!"

"i'm his gf.. ya, he was from tat sch. he ask you why?"

"hello, haha.. cause i was suprised he was from that school.. it's a special stream school eh.. how did he get in there? -_-"

"ya hi. he used to be catholic pri sch student tat y he can get tt sec sch so smoothly. anything else?"

" i see haha.. nothing else. enjoy yourselves ya.. good night to both of you..! and sorry if i disturbed ! just to clarify as well.. i got a boyfriend ! haha.. so don't get angry eh min han girlfriend ... =) "

"hmmm.. tat nth for me to be angry at. and y must u tell us u got a bf. we nt interested to noe also. nvm its ok. nitex."

w. t. f.

as a literature student, we study people relations and communications in ' silent' conversations, such as the example above. let me interpret it all to you.

1. (see 2nd reply, in green last words)

"............anything else?" ---------> suggests she is annoyed, she is slightly feeling a little frustrated with me cause i'm asking her BOYFRIEND A PATHETIC QUESTION.

2. (3rd reply in black, gigantic sized fonts, )

" hmm, tat nth for me to angry at........." --------> suggests she's trying very very very very hard to be magnanimous and ALLOW HER BOYFRIEND TO SMS ANOTHER GIRL. if she really didn't mind. why don't min han reply me himself. his girlfriend obviously wanted some control over this situation and assert her authority.

3. ( 3rd reply again, black gigantic size fonts, )

" and why must you tell us u got boyfriend, we not interested to noe also"

-------------> suggests she was desiring for an explanation before, but i had revealed it to her too soon. so she was trying to be nonchalant and be cool with the information she craved and desired for. gist : SHE WAS and IS INTERESTED.

4. ( 3RD REPLY AGAIN)

" nvm it's okay" --- > she's telling me i've disturbed them, simple interpretation.

5. (refer to 3rd reply again)

"nitex" -----> out of courtesy. she didn't mean to send it to me. and she probably just wanted to show she has a big roomy heart to allow her boyfriend to sms other girls. aggrandizing her authority. unfortunately it's not reaching me.

6. overview, assessment of whole text.

while one party ( rightfully me) is trying to be nice, the oppostion party is taking bloody advantage of the situation. bloody climbing on top of innocent's head. english is horrendous with outrageous spelling mistakes. relief sets in when realising basic sentence structure is still intact.

pissed off? i 'm not. but i PITY insecure people who're never good with counting their blessings.

GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE.. good night honey.

{ go to hell } 11:43 PM

Thursday, January 18, 2007

>>> 18 january

from left to right : CYNTHINA, JESLYN, WENQI, WENDY, JASMINE, PRETTY ME, SHARON. ZUFU is right at the back, ZHANG lao shi smiling away happily.

IN THE BACKSTAGE AFTER PRESENTATION, A BUNCH OF PRETTTY LADIES AND a cheena hunk

presentation today. a bloody long speech. i was just happy that my audience did not interupt with their irritating chatters and laughters, of which is what i would do if i was the bored one down stage. 15 minutes of fame this morning drove me crazy for the past few days. extremely exhausted.

doing very well today except for the fact that i was very disappointed when Mr francis Tan was not taking us for math. also disapointed when mr george spencer was not taking us for literature. he would have been better. i think.

i was satisfied and most grateful i got a wonderful teacher for GP, chinese and chemistry though. haha.

hmm... hopefully i'll excel this year. i'm chionging !!!

{ go to hell } 10:33 PM

>>> a romantic talk -- everything about you

i need my guy to be romantic.

1. sending me to school everyday is romantic.

2. filling up my water bottle everyday for school is romantic.

3. washing my plates for me is romantic.

4. remembering almost every single thing about what i said is romantic.

5. to stroll to the nearest place to get me food is romantic.

6. telling me you miss me is romantic.

7. going to supermarkets to shop for stuff is romantic.

8. buying me chocolates is romantic.

9. looking at me with that passionate look is romantic.

10. cooking for me is romantic.

11. washing me clothes for me is romantic.

12. ironing my uniform for me is romantic.

13. saying sorry to me is romantic.

14. finishing up the food i've cooked for you is romantic.

15. praising me on a daily basis is romantic.

16. holding my hands tightly is romantic.

17. folding my clothes is romantic.

18. socialising with my siblings is romantic.

19. studying with me is romantic.

20. helping me find information when i needed it is romantic.

21. giving me support that i need is romantic.

22. saying i'm adorable is romantic.

23. hugging me close to you is romantic.

24. twirling my hair is romantic.

25. helping me put a plaster on my wounds is romantic.

26. accompanying me buy shoes is romantic.

27. running with me cross traffic lights is romantic.

28. carrying my heavy loads around is romantic.

29. opening tidbits for me is romantic.

30. covering blanket for me is romantic.

31. offering to apply antiseptic on my cuts is romantic.

32. appreciating me is romantic.

33. watching movies together is romantic.

34. planning our future together is romantic.

35. playing true or dare with each other is romantic.

36. reminding me stuff is romantic.

37. reading my blog every day is romantic.

38. check out my friendster daily is romantic.

39. wanting to know more about me is romantic.

40. feeding me like i'm a pig is romantic.

41. kissing my finger is romantic.

42. joking around is romantic.

43. telling me stories about your life is romantic.

44. listening attentively to me is romantic.

45. playing 'zui jin' is romantic.

46. singing in that hushed, shy voice is romantic.

47. smiling to me is romantic.

48. acting like a kid is romantic.

49. being guilty about not sending me to school one fine day is romantic

50. being afraid i'll leave you someday is romantic.

50 romantic things about you. u are everything.

:) and i'm sorry for my lousy attitude these days. must be PMS. forgive me please.

{ go to hell } 10:14 PM

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

>>>

today is a happy day ! no lessons but only fun , fun and more fun !! we got dragon boating !! in kallang Singapore Dragon Boat Association.

but first we had a little picnic there. super alot of food la ! cupcakes, pandan cake, sea weed, sandwiches, bottles of 100 plus, minute maid, potato chips, chocolate crackers, tuna, noodles, b;ah blah... and even celebrated melissa's and Zahirah's birthday !!

Jaclyn wants her shot to be super spastic, i tried to accomodate her. typical CHIJ girl trying to take pictures. haha.

this is the prettier side of her and beautiful me. bloody cam whores !! haha..

picnic also so vain... P25s !! LOVE YA GUYS !!

dragon boating was uber fun ! got entirely wet in the water and also drenched in the rain! especially when we got a humourous INSTRUCTOR. we did not win the hanmper consisting of a 1.5 litre 100 plus lime flavoured ( the highlight of the cheapo goodie bag), some chocolate biscuits, potato chip kinda snack ....... however we weren't last in the inter class race either. =p

after that, daron picked me up from there. was a little pissed off with each other as we couldn't meet eye to eye on the place we are supposed to meet at. bloody kallang. haha..

sorry darling. :) u are magnanimous.

we then went lavender for a hawker treat. lovely food and highly addictive sugar cane makes me wanna go back there again. i'm still wondering why is the nearby police post called Kampong glam neighbour hood police post...

lived up every single second of my life. especially with you.

{ go to hell } 1:13 AM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

>>> saturday's always hectic

MY NEW ADIDAS SHOES !! go it in a hurry. i got only 30 mins to buy it. -_-'' . A $109 RASH BUY. GOT TO LEARN SOME FINANCIAL PLANNING.

and it's supposed to be red in colour, and i suppose i got a lousy camera..(pun was unintentional =)

on saturday, i woke up damn early la, just to do a speech preparation this coming thursday. hmm.. all the way from 9am to 3 pm.. i left the place early to accompany daron to RP. tiring man...

cam whoring again lar ... can't stand myself

Sophie and i in the computer lab, preparing for our thursday's speech. OH NO, i'm doing a presentation in front of the school for 10 mins !! my gog. it's my first time.. heh heh.. i'm capable. PEIRU, U CAN DO IT!

EVERYBODY BUSY AT WORK. hard work will be given due credit team mates.. :)

zHang lao shi and miss seng discussing our work...

hmm... like what he said. tai shang shi fen zhong, tai xia shi nian gong.. stupid presentation on moral values and what not. it simply bores the audience. Since i'm writing the speech myself, i'm gonna engage in interactive speaking. how am i gonna do that, i have my technique, don;t worry. but if it's disapointing, it's not my fault. YJcians, my speech is gonna be edited by our dear prncipal.. u should know what would happen. haha..

conversation with daron.. heh heh... sweet guy? no?

went to RP with daron straight after.. hmm.. people just go there for the goodie bag which only contatined a bottle of pathetic water and a super duper flimsy file which is as good as not keeping your paper in there. it dosent make much of a difference. haha..

{ go to hell } 12:40 AM

Saturday, January 13, 2007

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THIS IS A DESPERATE APPEAL TO ALL MY FRIENDS OUT THERE,

buy YJC open house coupon at $10 each !! i 've got 5 to sell to you guys, that makes it $50 altogether.

and come to my school to enjoy our food, games, performances and many more await you to discover !!

INTERESTED PARTIES PLEASE TAG OR SMS ME YA?? would love ya guys for a thousand years for doing me a favour.

{ go to hell } 12:33 AM

Friday, January 12, 2007

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well, no more orientation. but school resumed sleepily... it was going in a super slow motion, in adagio mode, like a snail trying to make it's way from east to west, like an old man trying to get from one side of the road to the otherside limping due to his handicap.

i swear i slept through all my lectures. anyway there wasn't any teaching at all. only introductions.

munching on my super sweet chocolates that Daron had given me, it had managed a little to perk me up by an infinitesimal inch. :)

found a reason to make me smile everyday.

hope it stays that way.

{ go to hell } 12:39 AM

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

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last day of orientation la. sad. but nevertheless, i got away with alot of aquaintances.

so, brought the group around for audition. play a little on the piano, managed to impress my group with my superficial skills and the normal repetoire. u know, it's only those few.

they were like *jaw drop*. i grinned. i swear they were stunned.

went on to play squash with hon ren. i'm good at that.

hon ren and i !! =p

i decided to join squash as my 2nd cca. Don't try to stop me. haha...

{ go to hell } 12:28 AM

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

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last 2nd day of orientation. Highlights are Monopoly alive where my house earned $500 k and topped the whole of the cohort.

business material we are. 2nd to us earned only $250 k, then 100k...

martin and i cam whoring during game of monopoly alive!!

everybody so engrossed into the game. people holding hands playing disco dancing to earn $$, macdonald game to earn the bonus $5000 and at the top most right hand corner is the jail.

what a lame game??! but we enjoyed it anyway. :)

thanks to whoever who came up with it.

here is the scouts campsite. our group did very well ! well done rodney 2 !!

see so many 10 points! games were pretty wet though.

that's joanne, shirley and i ! they love me la..

my group rocks :)

2 OGLs, terence and i

what i need is a little more time.

{ go to hell } 12:09 AM

Monday, January 08, 2007

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orientation today was B-O-R-I-N-G.

slept throughout the orientation. played C.S.I (crime scene investigation) i wouldn't deny the intelligence of the game but i'm sorry to say that i'm simply not interested in brain cracking sessions.

especially when i'm feeling especially touchy. grumpy. frustrated. i felt like going up to somebody i didn't feel like looking a and then give a punch on their faces. it's gonna be an aftermath of not enough sleep.

thankfully i was sober enough to curb the negative temptations.

but even before i plunged into my ultra PMS mood, i had quite a litle bit of fun. played game of concentration. i sabotaged my group members. they took revenge and called out my number simultaneously. F ! la.. haha... it's time for them to go for anger management courses.. and be taught that revenge is not exactly what Dan Brown 's sicko DaVinci code had projected. revenge is definitely NOT sweet.

i suffered big time from bullying my OG members. i was made to do chicken pose.

if you cant really spot me, i'm the one in blue collar. i'm a girl. *chicken pose*

also played blind call, where everyone had to identify themselves with an animal call (meow, woof, rawr !)

people caling out in their animal voices in the field.

mouth passing game

gay.. eee...

and i had to voice out my deepest complaint of the day..

f'in hav to wait for bloody 4 hours before i can eat !! walau... u all think wad... OGL super man ar.. OGL need not eat izzit?? i HUNGRY LA... HUNGRY !!! but cannot get food.. no time.. WALAU... complain la...

that's about it. bye people.