>>> L-I-F-E S-U-C-K-S

LIving a life now no one cares,
In an enclosed room i don't know where.
Finding a mate to pour agonies to,
End of it i seem more like a fool.
Suddenly u thought u found your man
Utimately it always ends.
Come and go like a
Kite which snapped
So, what's the problem? i don't care.


- The cynical-


>>> It's another Manic MONday

3 April 2006
Guess what? it's xian 's b'day.. Happy b'day to u...
happy b'day to u,
happie b'day to u,
Happie b'day to u
*blow out candles... yeah....

Okay, that's a little boring. School sucks today. Had stitches during pe and that is tantamount to losing a chance to lose 10 pounds that day. *pissed*. I feel extra fat.

-'' Wish it were sunday'' -



>>> tODAY'S DINNER



The before and After images of Today's dinner. what wastrels.

>>> -Disconsolated- A story of a rejected girl




A few days ago she was in bliss. She talked and had a good time with him.



Now she lives in ultimate humiliation brought about by rejection and a sense of unworthiness.

She stood by the window. Contemplating upon a disconsolate winter landscape. She wished he was there with her at that moment when the snow was most appealing then. How romantic would that be. Looking at passers-by, looking at humans. Onlooking in veneration on how amazing creations of Mother Nature was. At the same time baffled with whatever happened between the both of them. Did she say something wrong which made him distance himself away from her? Or is he simply not interested and it's just wishful thinking on her part?

Maybe it's just a one-sided infatuation.

But the fact that she now lives in extreme agony is a reality which cannot be disregarded; Living on the bread of wretchedness and self denial that there will still be hope for a future with him.

Guys are nothing but liars & cheats,
Promises are nothing but another miserable scam.

She struggled to mend the hole in her heart herself.
But the cut was too deep to reach.
The exterior was soon sewned up
The interior was never fixed.

>>> The Nicest b'dae parTy i ever been to *-*

Woke up very early to get my POSB card replaced as i lost it. Went online for maple and blog till about 4. Played a April Fool prank on stupid idiot. sorry that i played on ur feelings as i could not think of a better one.

Was late in meeting Shahril. Bought a gigantic piggy for like $89.95 for Amelda's prezzie. Then met Mark in Tampines mrt station at 6.45pm. Damn funny. Played jokes on the piglet ''Tat halal joke.'' LAME...-_-''.

Impressive. A chalet with 4 rooms and super big space. They pulled a prank saying Angela fell down. April Fool!! and even planned to dunk Soon into pool. It was premeditated. So Soon, sorry for not being able to tell u bout it. Haha.

Walked out of chalet to downtown East. Went back in fours--Mark, Shahril, Li Jin and I. Walked through pasir ris park. damn scary. Ther were narrating ghosts stories like '' Hantu te te''-- this tale in which a female g kidnaps guys and put into her breast. We girls were holding so tight onto the guys' arms. So much more comforting.

Something bad happened when we got back. Don;t wanna mention. It made me feel very disturbed throughout the whole chalet. Sad.

I wished u'd pay more attention to me. Maybe that'll make me feel better.

Went home alone after shahril alights. Damn nice people. Shah offered to pay for my cab fare if there's no more bus services he's like so damn kind?? Ans i also wanna thank Mark for holding onto my phone e whole day? thank Li Jin for accompanying me the whole day and to e washroom.

I don't know what i'm feeling. I enjoyed myself very much but somehow i still don't feel complete. Something is going missing. i wished u would take more initiative.

Reached home bout 0110 hr. Sad. Sad.

So near yet so far. i finally get the meaning.

and i wished i never knew him.

name:apple mei


wishlist
birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*

l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please

2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)

3.wait till i think of stuff

lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...



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