>>> anxiety creeping round' the corner- i ain't really affected
tomorrow 's Chinese exam. Clement smsed me at 1am asking me which topic to study. a little too late isn't it? -_-''
just finished doing powerpoint presentation for dear couz Shuai Quan. had a msn chat with 21 yr old couz long long--he drives, so handsome. deciding on whether to take up tennis together in yio chu kang. decided that i go check out time and fees.
told stupid idiot about tennis plans. he simply laughed at me. he said i was too pig to go for trainings. i'll prove him wrong. cause' i'm no longer fatty bom bom... *laughs*. and to think i was teasing myself about being a 'little fatty' yeterday . besties Jan and Cassie pointed out it was an oxymoron. i was boasting bout my gift with language. it was totally bimbotic except that i think my brains are bigger than the boobs.-- what a way to put things.
i realised my choice of words recently are horrendous. terrible. best example--bimbotic. usage of phrase also suck. example-- brains bigger than boobs.
haven't got english fashion out of me since monday. i have to stop speaking english for a while. i replied to chin-nah people like my brother in english when he spoke to me in mandrin. so weird. this friday is Chinese A levels oral. it's no laughing matter. people wish me luck.
i hope i will not utter a single ," then..." in chinese oral exams... i'll go bang the wall if i did.
gotta study geog now. ta-ta..
{ go to hell } 1:12 AM
!about me
name:apple mei
wishlist birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*
l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please
2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)
3.wait till i think of stuff
lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...
i live in my lackadaisical world i call my own
but only to be tied down by shackles of education which obviously suck big time
living with complexities of life which cannot be revealed and told openly
living in self denial and drowned in my everyday lies
unhealthy living dead i call myself
i just want a simple life with a boyfriend
the desire for a simple want purely makes my life difficult to those who knows my secret
with that i rather live life a living dead.
i no longer reveal the zany side of me
maybe i lost it along the way
on my pilgrimage to maturity
i yearn for someone to open the door
one of where i came from
to find bliss once again
out in the open lawn