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17th june 2006
Was invited to Heart of God church. i was so saved. saved from the kingdom of boredom. saved by chew theng!! before this i was so damned deperate for company. stupid idiot was tied down by the coming exams. stupid idiot couldn't accompany me!! stupid idiot gotta study. u could almost see the faint trace of abrasions brought about by the tight manacles he was wearing the day before. the shackles of educations 's so irratable. humph..!! *sighs* i'm also another pathetic victim of it. *sighs louder*.

was going through a rough patch recently. a really rough one. i had no directions in life. absoluetly no directions. i would sit around the couch watching at the tele. i'm not watching any shows on tele. i'm just merely looking, staring blankly at it. i'm fearing the exams myself, however there's no motivation to study. after slacking for 2 full years, i'm just plain lucky for the 'o's last year. pray hard that i get promoted to JC 2 this year. because i doubt i can make it again. i doubt i could be so lucky for another time. *sighs*

i was late for service. again. chew theng and i sneaked inside like a mouse would when it wants to steal some cheese. sat down. pastor preaches. after like 2 hours, it ended at 6.15pm. chew intorduced me to the people there. then we had to catch a movie at 7pm. thanks goodness we weren't late. went in a gang of 6 if i didnt remember it wrongly. with erm.. chew, me, zhi ya, wayne-a small little sec1 guy, candy and the other one i can't remember. we watched Runaway Vacation...!! okay, the movie i wouldn't say it's very nice, but worth paying a $9.50 for a good laugh. hahas.. i was rolling on the floor bacause the show was totally lame. bout this good father trying to save his job while not letting their kids and spouse know. kinda heatrwarming as well....

here's the best part. chew was asking if i wanted to go study and i was like '' yes!! i wanna do it..!!'' for so long i've been searching high and low and above and below and underneath and wadever that is, just for a study mate but it seems like it's a mission impossible kinda thing. and now that mate is coming knocking on the door asking '' hey wanna go study??'' guys, u wouldn't understand that kind of feeling .. that overwhelming sense of happiness-- wad betrand-the-rat calls ''euphoria''.

chew 's like a god-send sis, coming to my rescue when i most needed it. and i thank her for that. =)
okay i really want to put my heart into studies.. but there's a barrier within me. i keep telling myself studies is the only priority in life for now, others can wait. but i've come to realise that i have a weak determination to everything i'm supposed to do and in contrast, a ridiculous zest for things i'm not supposed to do like drawing stupid idiot's attention and just wanting to live life staring into space. people call me lazy, i call myself an autistic.

the dea'ls been made for chew to come my house for a study camp. =) *winks* i'm gonna make a change. and i think only myself can fulfil this sacred job.

name:apple mei


wishlist
birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*

l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please

2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)

3.wait till i think of stuff

lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...



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