>>> look at the time people, i'm daughter of superman
>can't sleep. >disturbed by pain in stomach. >addicted to blogging. >fear of tomorrow's Economics papers. >frozen by 2 hours in 16 degree celcius room with naked skin exposed directly under air- condition. >grieving for myself over possible red ink splashed onto my flunged papers. >withstanding the pressures of tomorrow's disheartening questions i am unable to answer definitely. >looking back into the past when exams are chicken feet, when exams are disregarded as of upmost importance. >reminiscing the sweetness of yesterday's memories >dreading the thought of struggling to wake up for school >loathe the thought of exams and another day without stupid idiot.
i wished i wasn't existing right now. selfish and unrealistic. i'm totally immersed with the idea of metaphysical doubt--questioning human existence in this world. Of which i have yet to fathom.
i wished there's no such thing as love. then it wouldn't bring pain.
{ go to hell } 2:23 AM
!about me
name:apple mei
wishlist birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*
l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please
2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)
3.wait till i think of stuff
lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...
i live in my lackadaisical world i call my own
but only to be tied down by shackles of education which obviously suck big time
living with complexities of life which cannot be revealed and told openly
living in self denial and drowned in my everyday lies
unhealthy living dead i call myself
i just want a simple life with a boyfriend
the desire for a simple want purely makes my life difficult to those who knows my secret
with that i rather live life a living dead.
i no longer reveal the zany side of me
maybe i lost it along the way
on my pilgrimage to maturity
i yearn for someone to open the door
one of where i came from
to find bliss once again
out in the open lawn