>>> things will never be the same again. If only..we could turn back time

before
we walked along the roadside. it's already half a kilometre from where we started. our fingers interlocked. no whispering of sweet nothings (he's not romantic) but exchanged meaningful conversations. sends me home with a gentle goodnight kiss on the forehead happy.

after
we walked along the roadside. he's getting irritated. he's tired. he no longer hold my hands. we're an arms length apart. i stopped talking for the fear that he'll get angry. he stops talking out of fatigue. my hands are freezing from the blowing of the frosty wind. i yearn for his warming hands to reach over for mine; take away the chill i'm feeling. but he didn't. he continued to ignore my very presence. i hate him this way. i protested in silence, i decided to keep quiet. he didn't sense that something is amiss. i refuse to bring up the problem. i went away in the bus. No goodnight kisses, no more conversations.no nothing. everything in the past reflected like a dream out of reach. out of my reach.

what is happening to us? a barricade between? out of nowhere? can't be. something must have happened i don't know what. it is causin me to lose my mind. it causes pain and suffering to the depths of my soul. i think i've got things i can't see eye-to-eye with. i don't know.

i can't contain much anymore. i had to voice my anguish.

but somehow when i had to speak, nothing comes out.

name:apple mei


wishlist
birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*

l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please

2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)

3.wait till i think of stuff

lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...



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