>>> Life's A So Doku


There are many things beyond our limits of apprehension, some of which I attempted so hard, but still, impossible to decipher, especially in the case of fathoming the mechanisms of the human heart. All our thoughts and feelings are all weaved tigether with much complexity, sometimes you can't even tell from anger and disappointment. Or maybe it just comes to you as a whole. And feelings are FREE, even cheaper than things u buy in pasar malam. Thus when it comes to you , it arrives as a package, like a buy-one-get-one-free, or maybe a $1 for 3 deal, like a bundle of anger and frustration u get on your doorstep whenever u are irritated; entirely because you don't really have to pay for it.

However, the dire consequences from not controlling the evil notions surfacing as a result of improper anger management is expensive, for that, u might spend the rest of your lives paying off this debt.

Fortunately, I have yet done anything out of rashness for revenge. My conscience is semi-clear. It's not anything proud to boast of my wrong doings anyway.

People are insidious at heart, more or less, and most of the things you hear along your adolescent years are outrageous and unrealistic, even though they are an illusional fantasy we all want to mimic.

"I love you FOREVER," he says.

The key word is not 'love' but 'FOREVER' . who can give you eternal commitment at this point of time? I was promised not only once, but many times, all of which was nothing but a void promise. My bad encounter with fantasizing in fairy tales slapped me back to reality. I learnt lessons the hard way.

All of us live in a world of our own. Some prefer Earth, they enjoy the companionship here. Some prefer mars. I myself seek to Venus, where I find warmth, love and beauty. Some, unconsciously, landed on Pluto-- the ultimate planet of darkness and isolation.

The controversial virtues VS vise question. I answer, "We're not perfect."

Despite knowing the primary meaning of that very statement, I still pursue perfection. This is a conventional inclination of people to seek idealism.

"Looks are merely secondary," I hear her say. But then when a normal looking person come by she does not appreciate, only when the dashing hunk asks for her hand she immediately agrees to it, ceteris paribus.

"Money is not important." But there seems to be a very clear cut on the wealthier and poor. The poor have been marginalized but the richer denies the discrimination act.

Everybody deserves the Hollywood's best actress and actors prize. Hypocrisy shadows each of the unreal claims, revealing an ugly society manifested with intelligently fabricated lies.

I am living proof. So are you.

name:apple mei


wishlist
birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*

l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please

2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)

3.wait till i think of stuff

lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...



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