Thursday, August 03, 2006
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people missing; missing poeple
i have...a myriad of aquaintances, countless friends, some best ones.but when i need someone. i see nobody. not even Him...that boils down to one conclusion:"I CAN HAVE EVERYTHING TO LIVE WITH,
BUT I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR.."
got into a extremely foul mood today.
**3 days ago i was lectured in a coffeeshop by a cleaner. i thought maybe she was just old so i forgave her nosensical speech.
**2 days ago i met this idiotic bud driver who insisted that i have to pay adult fare since i don't have my student pass with me. i ended up paying $1.60 when i can get it at 55cents. I WAS IN SCHOOL UNIFORM!!
**yesterday was coerced to go for this saturday's debate between Raffles and victoria junior college in some hotel.
**today : -accused
-forced again.
-humilated
-scolded
i'm so damned down. i don't think i deserve all this. i'm suffering from terrible self inflicted depression.
i cried at every love song played on the radio,
i'd weep when i think of you.
i think i'm deprived of love.
when will you ever learn to give
the things i should receive?
all of you are tied down by relationships and new friends and distance.
we're all drifting away.
it's like pangyae seperating into the 7 continents it is like today.
so sad, so sorry, dead.
{ go to hell } 8:18 PM