have you not taken advantage of me as well? i gave you time, i left you alone, and you just left me alone too. i decided to play silkroad not because i wanted to, it's because it gave me a reason to know you better, and make up for whatever time we are unable to spend together. you did not appreciate it.
i just hope to just say that thing i've always wanted to into your face," i've found the most important guy in my life, but he, unfortunately is not you." i just want to hurt you. let you know how it really feels to be hurt. i want to slap you in front of a crowd, strip you of your ego and whatever is left of your dignity. i want you to feel like you're not a man at all.
--please remove me of my negative karma--
{ go to hell } 3:05 PM
!about me
name:apple mei
wishlist birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*
l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please
2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)
3.wait till i think of stuff
lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...
i live in my lackadaisical world i call my own
but only to be tied down by shackles of education which obviously suck big time
living with complexities of life which cannot be revealed and told openly
living in self denial and drowned in my everyday lies
unhealthy living dead i call myself
i just want a simple life with a boyfriend
the desire for a simple want purely makes my life difficult to those who knows my secret
with that i rather live life a living dead.
i no longer reveal the zany side of me
maybe i lost it along the way
on my pilgrimage to maturity
i yearn for someone to open the door
one of where i came from
to find bliss once again
out in the open lawn