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Sunday, October 29, 2006

>>> it's not so wonderful afterall

on our way to habour front...brother trying to act like a zombie.

we ate bread and drank on the mrt. haha. somebody please fine me $500 !! there was this SMRT uncle on the train, but he didn't catch. so kind of him! and out of boredom, we played thie really stupid game. we guessed who is gonna alight on which station. there were only 4 choices from dhoby ghaut to harbour front. *chinatown, *clarke quay and * outram park i guess. forgot. whatever.

first victim was auntie carrying matress sheets. i guessed that she's going home so i guessed outram park, wei wei guessed chinatown cause she looked cheena.. haha..while waiting, we picked on another victim. an ang-moh. we giggled so much because i commented, " got bubblegum never share." and we laughed. everything seemed funny at that point of time. haha. then it was superwoman, this lady wore a superman t shirt. wei wei could'nt see superwoman at first, then after he realised that it was that woman, he and i burst into fits of unstoppable laughter. HAHAHAHA...

candy empire has been disappointing, i brought my brother there for Wonka chocolate bars, hoping to be one of the lucky 5 to get a chance into the mysterious chocolate factory, but chocolate bars are all sold out. just too bad for us i guess.

and not even wonka oompas, i wanted to buy another one, but next time maybe, wait till they have a sufficient flow of stock. i shall visit that place again.

an hour travelling time wasted. NO WONKAS!!! =(

nevertheless, we went for some shopping. Zara didn't have M size for this off shoulders top. so sad. =(. neither do Toyr'us have the water hula hoop i want to purchase.

a very big track... for thomas and friends!!

my brother f***ed the gigantic display..

i look so ku-ku with the fake helmet of hair..haha

went home in disappointment. i didn't want to buy my brother this dino toy. he threw his temper and walked his way out of the store. after checking out that there's still no wonka bars, we left. what a spoilt boy ! haha. but he wasn't angry after making himself busy with guessing flavours of jelly beans we bought. hmm.. candy saved my life.

candy saved the day !

{ go to hell } 6:36 PM

>>> more pictures for 28th october !

hui qing and martin

act cute number 5!

stupid faces

martin wanna act like he's scared cause we're menacing

cannot stand him arh.. act cute again.. laugh at him

woah.. ... someone gonna remember martin's face for life.. haha

we kill him first !! wahahaa

lovely night scene from Lido

{ go to hell } 4:37 AM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

>>> invitation for shopping-- updated

Got an invitation to go orchard. yay ! i'm gonna buy clothes! get $$ from papa !

hui qing ! here i come !~~ haha... shall update when i come home.

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okay, have to do this survey for hui qing, she earns $8 per survey !! OHMYGOD! it's good money lar! haha. it's bout this new flavour drink that's gonna come out into the market. it's a secret! hahas..

i was surveyed in these little cubicles.

drew some $$ out of the ATM, saw this really cool shop sellng halloween stuff.

martin probably didn't notice the king kong behind him.

do i look like a witch now??

then we went to macdonalds ! i had cheeseburger and french fries! yay!

this is martin calling home to his mom, haha..

we then went to mIphosis to buy my top ! finally !

i'm totally in love with stripes! this costs me $27.65.

a pity zara didn't have what i wanted. shall go to Vivo to check it out again. hopefully they still have stock ! i wanted a double brown hue off shoulders top. super nice la ! what a waste that i didn't get it. =(

next stop was Far East. i searched high and low for a pair of shorts. i saw a few that i liked. but funny i only bought one, partly cause martin said just get one will do. both pants lookd almost the same to him. but i think otherwise when i got home. i shall get the other one on monday after school. yeah.!

nice? nice? my new shorts !

after this i didn't know what to buy, and plus the fact that it was already 9pm, most of the shops are closing very soon, we chilled at Shaw's top floor, on one of the benches, took lots of pictures ! hui qing didn't want to take at first, but she relented in the end. other pictures are with martin, so i shall upload a few first.

act cute pose number 1 !

act cute pose number 4 !

act cute pose number 10 !

act cool....

bored and got nothing to do !

he pretended to sleep...

martin's naughty finger did that cute thing on my face.. -_-''

BIG SMILE !

he got no expression, walau ! not even with pretty girl beside him !

this is how orchard would look like at 11.27pm.

okay, then went home and watched this hong kong film till around 3am. but he's still not at home yet. i called his best buddy, only then he bear to answer. I'M SO ANGRY WITH YOU !

{ go to hell } 3:06 PM

>>> 27th oct was tomfolery AND merry

class 119 !! some people missing

started our day waiting and waiting and waiting. played the most miserable game of uno ever. everyone only wanted to clear their cards. so boring ! haha! then..

went to sentosa, a cheap $3 and fun with classmates.

water dips, dumbo walk to 7-eleven all the way from siloso's entrance--we could have taken the tram.

2 Big Gulp with coke+sprite+grape+100-plus+cokelight punch was a delight accompanied with a stick of fish ball for wan cheng and stick of wan ton for me.

took a bumpy ride on e tram all e way back to our site.

splash and fun in the sea. poor wan cheng didn't have extra clothing to spare, no towel either so i kindly lent it to her. SO KIND OF ME. heh heh.. =)

wan cheng and i going to the toilet !

long queue waiting for a cubicle in the toilet. GIRLS !

on our way to vivo...bye sentosa!

made our way to vivo city ! yay ! my first time there! CANDY EMPIRE WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME! unfortunately pick and mix was unavailable. fortunately i saved a fortune.

chicken rice at BANQUET. they serve lousy food there. how i hate causeway point. and walked to the rooftop for some sight-seeing, dip in the water. AGAIN. sat around the rocky floor and chat with wan cheng, yu ling, sarala, lynette, li jin, sop,.. amd whoever was there lar..HAHA.

at banquet, a shot before food. HUNGRY ! HUNGRY!

chilled in the roof for quite some time, temptation for shopping was irresistable. and so sop, li jin and i went on our shopping spree!

on the roof of vivo! so glam rite.

first stop was mIphosis. tried this striped tank. lijin and sop went on a polka dot craze. every piece with polka dots seems to be mesmerising. -_-'' so they tried polka dots tops on.

next was The Gap. due to knowledge of it from our geography lesson, we were curious what kind of apparels they're selling. only to find out something very repulsive-- the $$ . and the stuff were only so-so.

t hen, to Zara. those were so nice ! we behaved so kiasu-like. haha. when we realised we could actually try-on 6 pieces, we made full use of it. wahhaa... i tried on a striped long sleeve, a brown collar thingy and a striped tank. i was on my stripey craze too ! haha.

then it was forever-21. li jin bought a polka capri and i bought a striped thong. woo~hoo... haha.. wanted to buy my tank from mIphosis, but then, it closed at 9pm !! walau ! i cursed the shop for not having business for the next few days. haha.

Thongs from forever21.

last stop was candy empire for some candy shopping ! before our great day ended. phew. reached home safely at 11.30pm. before we left the place, lets introduce the place ! CANDY EMPIRE!

Sophia and her 95 cents new toy for halloween tomorrow. haha.

{ go to hell } 2:38 PM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

>>> lame nuts

on msn, i put my nick as

" i need someone to talk to, TALK TO ME !!!!"

very effective. i almost cant handle the flow of consecutive chat mates. xian, pk, kai wei, jm, rah, BLAH BLAH........ some were just kind enough to ask, " are you okay?"

hmm.. i could finally smell a whiff of humanity in this society.

kai wei was damn lame, i typed, " beat you arh!"

she replied, " ouch pain"

it's friends like this who makes my day so enjoyable and fun. not forgetting jia min for our coincidental dates for exams. we could laugh so much over such a little thing.

love ya pal ! not forgetting her kind gesture to help me lend vcds from elaine! whether successful or not dosen't matter, it's the thought that counts. RIGHT BUDDY?

{ go to hell } 9:45 PM

>>> test-on-the-spot

chinese mock was chicken feet. though i had to force myself to write an impromptu essay and a few pages of scribbling. following that was food ! yay !

and so, four of us, li jin, peachy wan cheng, and charmaine and i bought food !! eat our fill.

and they had something against me eating apples. HAHA. "it's healthy!" i tell them. still the objections come in. no harm. it's not gonna stop my fetish for apples! it's not even a fetish ! it's a healthy thing! wahahaha...

okay, did a little romantic walk-in-the-rain after school with wan cheng cause she wanted to walk home and so, due to my guillibility, she bluffed me all the way to her house. haha. ( actually i did it voluntarily). I NOT STUPID.!! haha.. -_-''

having dinner soon! ta-ta!

{ go to hell } 5:01 PM

>>> school today

had sexuality education talk by some school teacher.. that was so boring.

ran from grandstand to canteen, hand-in-hand with charmaine, wancheng, li jin and sophia was so primary school, yelling "yay recess!!" in our most enthusiastic voice.

though was tied down by stupid PROJECT in school, i enjoyed my day nevertheless, did lots of power point slides....

lucky arh !! never go poly !! i hate doing projects!! morever poly does it on a daily/weekly basis. WTF!!

our trip to Vivo city cancelled due to time constraints, but we had fun still.

home @ 00.00am, but i'm not tired and wished we had more time. nevermind.

{ go to hell } 12:00 AM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

>>> back to you

how would life be like if i did not choose another path?

would i still remain a juvenile roaming the well-lit streets of orchard @ 9 pm?

with my bestie yixian, trying to eat our fill with street ice-cream? or a sumptuous dinner @ swensen's?

would i be influenced to do better than what i am doing now? getting 10 points for o levels, go into some better JC, hook up with a senior and focus on my studies?

haha... wishful thinking i must say.. "In your dreams!" i hear these words echoing.

as i texted her today, talking about hair, going-outs and stuff, i guess i missed her. lame-shits in the toilet- handing a roll of toilet paper under the cubicle, jokes, spending, sweet-searches, and window shopping after every school day.

it's what a girl wants, it's what i want.

but as people grow, they tend to have more commitments toward different stuff. i have yet to find my commitment, and that's why i'm still roaming aimlessly in the streets. my friends have theirs, boyfriends are enough to take them away from my reach. unfortunately for me, while besties have their boyfriends to keep them company, i just had to bury in books to live the boredom away.

as for bestie with no boyfriend, she's several kilometres away from me, off the coasts of a neighbouring country, so near yet a country away. another ives in a mysterious world i never knew, but i know i would in time to come.

it's just another boring monday, again.

{ go to hell } 11:56 PM

>>> a reason to smile, what are you?

i can't seem to gather my thoughts, they're running in all sorts of directions and i can't just find anything in common to associate them together.

that goes to show one thing-- i've got worries, bagful of them.

i wanna go to a home, for the needy. i wanna stage a play for them, keep them happy and going. i want to be the one who could make them forget their worries at that particular moment regardless of how disastrous things would turn out. i want to hear a room of laughter, see a sea of smiles; smiles thousands of times more brillant than Singapore's 4 million smiles campaign poster.

if i had the ability to do that, i'll die with content.

and maybe just by doing so, my worries would be taken away with it as well.

my question is, what am i worrying about?

{ go to hell } 11:16 PM

>>> cycle round the same old track

PW, chinese, PW, chinese, PW, chinese, PW, chinese, PW, chinese, PW, chinese....

that's the time table for these few days. Good news would be that Tuesday and Friday, is a holiday! so, instead of focusing on doing the powerpoint slides in that 3 hours assigned, we took some pictures!

saw pui kheng in north point, she still looked all the same. but she smiles more now.

had crabs and some veggies and fish for dinner, of which, i had to swallow with botherations and bitter-sweet memories.

Whenever my mood swings a little too much, i just had to pop one or two chocolates into my mouth. too much of Hershey's never tend to cloy the addictive characteristic of it all, and it is a cure for all emotional predicaments -- it does, temporarily.

{ go to hell } 12:02 AM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

>>> keep me alive

i realised that only by occupying myself with meaningful stuff, such as imparting my knowledge to dear cousins taking the Os this year, would brighten up my spirits. the fun, experience, satisfaction and all is comforting . giving me a sense of self fulfilment. indescribable euphoria, unexplainable bliss.

thus, i need not bother about anything else in this mundane world, whether unpleasant or not. and helping others out actually comes with surprises. i got 50 bucks !! from my aunt.

it went like this...

" you have to expand your vocabulary....learn variations of primary words such as angry.."
"orh... "

*knock**knock* "Ali ar... give you $50.. buy something you like,"
"Huh? why?" i questioned with 101 doubts.
"just give you lor.." my aunt kindly answered.
"okay, xie xie."

maybe it's just her manner of appreciation for devoting my time to tutor my cousin. nevertheless, i accepted it with 10 % pleasure and 90 % gratitude, rather than as a matter-of-factly thing.

hahas, so happie! good begets good, and a piece of advice to those who are accumulating bad karma, start to change your evil ways! and you'll see the beneficial side of it all ! wahahahaha............

watched soccer match in couz's place. Man U won liverpool !! hahas... we won the bet!

{ go to hell } 11:49 PM

>>> fucking sad

still, i have to fulfil my promise to my dear cousin, teach 'em some stuff for o levels. hopefully he'll do well...

at times like this, i would think of you. u've been brave to come upfront about your confessions toward me.

it's not that i did't believe you , but rather, i don't believe in myself. how i wish that --- know's that he's threatened you and that --- would try to salvage my acute annoyance against that arsehole, of which idiot have yet realise.

crying in the night like this isn't helping much, and would you ever know i'm crying hard? because i won't want to lose a friend, but you've proved yourself unfit, to be one. hopefully you would do something about it.

animosity for you is escalating to great heights, i can't forgive you on this. i'm sorry, but this time, u've gone way too far. cursing and swearing at you is only gonna degrade myself. so i think i'm stopping the whole nonsense and please, tell me what to do to you.

{ go to hell } 3:10 AM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

>>> tearing apart...

i'm so vexed, so so enraged! WHAT FUCKING BIRTHDAY IS THIS? the celebrations went very well, but it's today that's my b'day !! not yesterday!!

not only you had not applied for a leave, not only you had not bothered to call, not only you had not bothered to even ask, U tried to find excuses ! if u're not interested, GO AWAY !! i'm fucking pissed ! WITH YOU ! YES !!! WITH YOU !!!

saying u're sick is not a reason enough to account for you temporary abscence. i smsed you saying i'm ALONE. what did u say? NOTHING ! and an apology does not mean that u're too sick to even CALL ME right? U'RE WEAK ! i'm so angry with you ! i CAN GO WITHOUT YOUR PRESENTS !

ALL I WANT TO DO IS TO JUST THROW EVERYTHING IN YOUR FACE AND WALK AWAY FROM YOU ! U BLOODY IDIOT! I DON'T WANT THE BLOODY JACKET, I DON'T WANT ANYTHING !

NOTHING YOU DO FROM NOW ON HELPS. I'M SORRY, BUT YOU'RE NOT FIT TO BE MY FRIEND AT ALL........

I ONLY KNOW I HATE YOU ! U 'VE HURT ME ! U FUCKING WENT BEYOND THE LINE ! SCRAM ! I DON'T WANNA SEE YOUR FACE ! DON'T EVER CALL ME ! DON'T SAY I'M YOUR FRIEND !

DON'T EVER COME AND FIND ME AGAIN ! i got a life to spend, no life to waste !

go to your daddy, drink all you want, enjoy your quality time, be a super filial child, eat! play games ! go do your fucking projects ! work full time !! earn all the $$ you want in the world !! I'M FUCKING FUCKING ANGRY WITH YOU !!!!!!!

u'RE NEVER THERE, NOT EVEN VISITS TO THE DOCTOR. NOT EVEN A DECENT OUTING... I'VE KNOWN YOU LESS THAN A YEAR ! YOU WERE ONCE MY BESTIE, BUT PLEASE GO AWAY NOW....... GO AWAY !

U'RE SICK RIGHT.. GO SEE A BLOODY DOCTOR ! THIS WOULD BE MY LAST TIME BEING SOOO KIND TO YOU. SO MUCH FOR BEING NICE, THIS IS HOW UI TREAT ME. U BLOODY TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME. U BLOODY HURT MY FEELINGS. DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE?

U DON'T EVEN KNOW A FUCK ABOUT IT !

if you did, you wouldn't have done this to me. u didn't forget, but the worst thing was u didn't bother. U'RE A TOTAL DISAPPOINTMENT.

FUCKING ASSHOLE........

happiness never lasts long, i 've mentioned it... AND IT JUST HAPPENED RIGHT AFTER I'VE SAID IT. too bad for me i guess...

{ go to hell } 10:51 PM

>>> the list of my headaches and desires

1) save $$ for China trip !!
2) go out with newly aquainted friend Elaine! Jiamin and Elaine, let's go singing!
3) go out with yee koon and jessica! i missed you guys!
4) teach Jun quan some writing tactics for composition writing!
5) pass shuai quan argumentative essays
6) tidy up my room !!
7) read more books!
8) try to get weiloong to study !
9) buy DVD s to watch ! ( still got $10 free voucher, not used yet)
10) go back to church to meet up with those lovely people ! clarice, chew!, samantha, leonard...
11) reduce waistline to 26 inches!
12) go on some shopping spree with my girlfriends !! yixian, hui xin,...

i might as well put it up permanantly on the front page rite? !! WTH .. haha..

{ go to hell } 10:51 PM

>>> happy b'day to me

after all the fun, sms greetings from friends, loneliness sets in once again and consumes the whole of my being.

i wonder why.

having all the company of the best people i've known, and countless people who tried their very best to book me on my birthday to no avail, i still feel empty. maybe what i need is a little bit more of a couple company rather than large gatherings. i love presence of people, especially the ones who had been there all the time regardless of time and place. would i be able to fulfil my very most urgent wishes? or do i have to be a little bit more patient for the best to come?

i want to step out of the house again for extra activities to keep my body in shape, and not to ignore the primary definition of "shape" because, my definition of shape will never include
" round" as a shape, Round is a destructive device to me, it may not be applicable to everyone as some looks too cute in that form.

gonna get a hula hoop from jing later on, making sure waist stays at 26 before my trip to China. gotta look good, just in case i bump into justin timberlake on a shopping trip there--which is most probabaly not gonna be the case. it's just a fairytaley dream to see prince charming.

i know i'm not being coherent here. hahas, whatever. it's my day, i get to do whatever i want. and to be so blessed with a caring father sponsoring $$ for my needs on this special occasion. with a little extra to spend the next few days.

LIFE IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.

as much as i want to remain positive, it's a reality which all of us have to face-- hapiness donsen't last long enough for us to really enjoy it. it comes and it goes. maybe i'll just have to learn to be contented with my blessing for now. *smileys!!*

{ go to hell } 7:55 PM

>>> party for seventeenth

guests: shuai, alvin, yiming, boonchong, jiamin, debbie, sinyi, jing's bf, zhonglin, jolene, weng guan, li fen, huiting, ming kang, yiai, her bf, my brother. jun quan, weiquan, hui xin, eric, jing kai, lifen's friend, and some other people can't really recall.....

prepared 10 litres of iced water, marinated chicken with oyster sauce, pepper, honey, salt and ...( think that's it),
at around 6, bought foodstuffs such as hotdogs, marshmallows, meatballs, prawns, crabsticks, jugs, syrup for drinks, mashes, margarine, brushes, tongs, charcoal... finished shopping around 6.45pm.

marinated chicken filet pieces with black pepper sauce. delightful.

people started to arrive approximately around 7.30pm, along with their sincerest wishes and presents for the 2 b'day girls, namely jing jing and i. 4M2 and my cousins formed the largest crowd, i received 7 presents!.. well, my present's this year are more of quality rather than quantity. we joked around, the guys played soccer in the basketball ground, ate, play, chat, receive presents and wishes..... WONDERFUL IS ALL I COULD SAY. a pity my best pal kai wei had to go penang, if not it'll be wonderful. =) heex...

blue oceanic wrapper contains large sized softoy from hui xin+eric+geoksan, extra large turtle softoyfrom stupid idiot, a sesame street chacracter softoy from stupid idiot, a little white bear in wrapping plastic from boon chong, a little pouch from alvin, chain inside the pouch from lifen and gang, osmose apparel from kai wei + jiamin+ b'day girl jing !+ yiming+elaine!( new friend through jiamin! a super smart individual and pretty too!)

i I LOVE ALL MY PRESENTS!! THANKS PEOPLE!

let's pry open the contents in detail...

a sexy dress !!! showing extra cleavage , and pretty on me !! love those people ! this is my favourite of all favourites! jiamin, jing and kai ! know my preferences, love ya mans.!!

An ethnic patterned mini pouch!! nice !- courtesy of alvin.

an anklet ? bracelet? should be the latter.. hahas, too small for my fleshy ankle anyway. thanks lifen and gang!

a mini bear, cute ! thanks boon chong for your thoughtfulness! (though u didn't have any idea of what to buy , u still got one for jing and me ! )

okay, this on-the-shelf guy has been adored by me for several months ! and now it's mine... wahahahahah..

got the big turtle instead of small one, generously purchased by S.I. though i would rather have one bikini in exchange for this extravagrant softie. but appreciated, all appreciated, seriously...--just look at the contrast !! against the small turtle !! it's like a half a metre in terms of width and length !

Last but not least ..... dan dan den denth !!! the biggest prezzie of all, almost most unexpected of all.... lets pry it open...it's a...

ELMO !!! standing at ard 70cm tall, it's looking down at elmo-junior, smirking and self aggrandizing. wow !! Whee !! exhilarated !! overwhelming !! thanks again to dear hui xin, eric and Geok San !!! love ya people!

The fun did not end here altogether after opening all the lovely gifts... we still got a surprise ! a little cake bought by Sin Yi, which is Jing Jing's boyfriend 's sister..

so kind of jing to share it with me... !

lighted it up... had my wish..blow candles off! what was it i can't tell !! secret! but hope it comes true anyway...

cutting the cake with this pretty girl ! jing and i !

was asked to pick up the candle with my mouth.. i knew there was come kind of conspiracy going on...but i was coerced into it.... NO CHOICE.. THAT'S MING KANG AT THE BACK.. TRYING TO PUSH MY HEAD INTO THE CAKE... GOTCHA!

got cream all over my face !! jing's friend MING KANG DIDI THIS TO ME !! jing can still laff at me.. anyway i got it too.. wahahahaha !!! what a surprise ending to the party!

I'm all happy and everything, especially the presence of most whom i least expect, thanks to all 4M2s! you guys rock my world !! it was the RIGHTEST thing to do to transfer into our school !!....... *muacckkks* people!

{ go to hell } 3:21 AM