i realised that only by occupying myself with meaningful stuff, such as imparting my knowledge to dear cousins taking the Os this year, would brighten up my spirits. the fun, experience, satisfaction and all is comforting . giving me a sense of self fulfilment. indescribable euphoria, unexplainable bliss.
thus, i need not bother about anything else in this mundane world, whether unpleasant or not. and helping others out actually comes with surprises. i got 50 bucks !! from my aunt.
it went like this...
" you have to expand your vocabulary....learn variations of primary words such as angry.." "orh... "
*knock**knock* "Ali ar... give you $50.. buy something you like," "Huh? why?" i questioned with 101 doubts. "just give you lor.." my aunt kindly answered. "okay, xie xie."
maybe it's just her manner of appreciation for devoting my time to tutor my cousin. nevertheless, i accepted it with 10 % pleasure and 90 % gratitude, rather than as a matter-of-factly thing.
hahas, so happie! good begets good, and a piece of advice to those who are accumulating bad karma, start to change your evil ways! and you'll see the beneficial side of it all ! wahahahaha............
watched soccer match in couz's place. Man U won liverpool !! hahas... we won the bet!
{ go to hell } 11:49 PM
!about me
name:apple mei
wishlist birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*
l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please
2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)
3.wait till i think of stuff
lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...
i live in my lackadaisical world i call my own
but only to be tied down by shackles of education which obviously suck big time
living with complexities of life which cannot be revealed and told openly
living in self denial and drowned in my everyday lies
unhealthy living dead i call myself
i just want a simple life with a boyfriend
the desire for a simple want purely makes my life difficult to those who knows my secret
with that i rather live life a living dead.
i no longer reveal the zany side of me
maybe i lost it along the way
on my pilgrimage to maturity
i yearn for someone to open the door
one of where i came from
to find bliss once again
out in the open lawn