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Saturday, October 21, 2006
>>> tearing apart...

i'm so vexed, so so enraged! WHAT FUCKING BIRTHDAY IS THIS? the celebrations went very well, but it's today that's my b'day !! not yesterday!!

not only you had not applied for a leave, not only you had not bothered to call, not only you had not bothered to even ask, U tried to find excuses ! if u're not interested, GO AWAY !! i'm fucking pissed ! WITH YOU ! YES !!! WITH YOU !!!

saying u're sick is not a reason enough to account for you temporary abscence. i smsed you saying i'm ALONE. what did u say? NOTHING ! and an apology does not mean that u're too sick to even CALL ME right? U'RE WEAK ! i'm so angry with you ! i CAN GO WITHOUT YOUR PRESENTS !

ALL I WANT TO DO IS TO JUST THROW EVERYTHING IN YOUR FACE AND WALK AWAY FROM YOU ! U BLOODY IDIOT! I DON'T WANT THE BLOODY JACKET, I DON'T WANT ANYTHING !

NOTHING YOU DO FROM NOW ON HELPS. I'M SORRY, BUT YOU'RE NOT FIT TO BE MY FRIEND AT ALL........

I ONLY KNOW I HATE YOU ! U 'VE HURT ME ! U FUCKING WENT BEYOND THE LINE ! SCRAM ! I DON'T WANNA SEE YOUR FACE ! DON'T EVER CALL ME ! DON'T SAY I'M YOUR FRIEND !

DON'T EVER COME AND FIND ME AGAIN ! i got a life to spend, no life to waste !

go to your daddy, drink all you want, enjoy your quality time, be a super filial child, eat! play games ! go do your fucking projects ! work full time !! earn all the $$ you want in the world !! I'M FUCKING FUCKING ANGRY WITH YOU !!!!!!!

u'RE NEVER THERE, NOT EVEN VISITS TO THE DOCTOR. NOT EVEN A DECENT OUTING... I'VE KNOWN YOU LESS THAN A YEAR ! YOU WERE ONCE MY BESTIE, BUT PLEASE GO AWAY NOW....... GO AWAY !

U'RE SICK RIGHT.. GO SEE A BLOODY DOCTOR ! THIS WOULD BE MY LAST TIME BEING SOOO KIND TO YOU. SO MUCH FOR BEING NICE, THIS IS HOW UI TREAT ME. U BLOODY TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME. U BLOODY HURT MY FEELINGS. DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE?

U DON'T EVEN KNOW A FUCK ABOUT IT !

if you did, you wouldn't have done this to me. u didn't forget, but the worst thing was u didn't bother. U'RE A TOTAL DISAPPOINTMENT.

FUCKING ASSHOLE........

happiness never lasts long, i 've mentioned it... AND IT JUST HAPPENED RIGHT AFTER I'VE SAID IT. too bad for me i guess...

{ go to hell } 10:51 PM

!about me

name:apple mei


wishlist
birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*

l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please

2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)

3.wait till i think of stuff

lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...


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!credits

i live in my lackadaisical world i call my own
but only to be tied down by shackles of education which obviously suck big time
living with complexities of life which cannot be revealed and told openly
living in self denial and drowned in my everyday lies
unhealthy living dead i call myself
i just want a simple life with a boyfriend
the desire for a simple want purely makes my life difficult to those who knows my secret
with that i rather live life a living dead.
i no longer reveal the zany side of me
maybe i lost it along the way
on my pilgrimage to maturity
i yearn for someone to open the door
one of where i came from
to find bliss once again
out in the open lawn