Wednesday, November 15, 2006
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i'm feeling so bloody emotional. i can't say that i have recovered from that blow. it was excruciating. it's not a normal kind of pain i would normally feel, nor the kind of pain you guys feel. it's something spiritual, not physical. it's even more happening if a knife were to penetrate your exposed heart.
i'm bleeding 24/7.
our plan to go school was thwarted. martin and i was supposed to jam in the school's auditorium, which is normally pitch dark even in the mornings there's no special programmes. we're supposed to play poker and sing with just the two of us awaiting for the arrival of our best playmate - hui qing - to join in the fun. however i guess both of us are not in the mood for all these.
i was tired. martin was planning for a emo trip himself, which he says he would " follow my heart, go wherever my heart takes me to"
i cried. that line was so drama. and i was too emotional too...
i didn't feel like going out. i felt like it was the end of the world though occasional words of encouragement by my fellow friends managed to help me drop all the negativities i had in my stream of thoughts.
thanks charmaine for calling me up for school today. i know you guys will miss me.. haha... =)
by the end of the day, all my feelings of grief, agony and disappointment was still lingering. i can feel it.
i wonder when will they go away.
thanks xian, i think i'm fine, at most i change my subject if possible. and i am looking forward for fynette to come to YJ. we shall work hard.
if i ever told you i'm fine, i am not. you might never know how i feel until you tried it. but of course, i wouldn't want you to because, it's really terrible.
{ go to hell } 12:29 AM