i have lots of work to catch up on. i have to mend a broken relationship. i have insufficient gifts to give out. i have a cousin to teach. i have insufficient $$ to spend now that i've spent everything there. i have meet-ups to arrange ( big headache) i've got new friends and i've got to make sure i'll keep in touch with them (very often difficult due to many many reasons). i've got china to miss. i've got memories to keep and document for self-keeping sake. i've got china friends to contact and send each other stuffs.
the list goes on.
my mood is not the supposedly happy one after every other holiday but i go home with a sunken face like i've just lost a loved one.
or maybe i just did losing a loved one. it's a terrible feeling.
today when i see everyone's relatives receive them from the airport, i wanted to cry out loud. i called dad. he was working. i could sense the welcoming joy of my return, but he blurted out, " you're coming home by taxi right?"
what else could i say? i just replied with a lazy , " yah" and put down the phone.
how i wish he would put down his work and come fetch me !
but i'm perversely announcing that i'm not alone. sorry to say that but i'm really glad al least hon ren and kai heng are another few lonely souls deeply saddened by the cruel fact of having no one to receive us.
wendy even got a fan club !!! her friends came to fetch her!! there i stood in front of the departure hall, sadly waving to people i don't even know, pretending to have relatives and friends out there waiting for me until the crowd is all gone.
three lonely souls lay there in disappointment, an urge to cry and engaging in deep thought, " where are all our friends and relatives?"
we went for mac donalds breakfast and went home together in a cab. my mom said she's got the intention to fetch me but i did not tell her when i'm coming back.
true enough. my bad.
dad welcomed me back cooking a sumptuous breakfast for me. i bought stuffs for siblings. they weren't happy about my return though. another person fighting over e computer with them.
-_-''
the more i talked about it, the more affected i am. i shall stop here. i shall rest more. recuperate from all the blows i had for today.
i can't take it anymore.
martin, zhi xiang, i missed you guys.
jing jing, kai wei, jia min, i hoped you guys were there with me. china trip was super fun.
koon and jessica, i know you guys missed me alot just as i have towards both of you. thanks for bothering to be the firsts to welcome me as soone as i've reached singapore. and thankful that koon went to the airport and talked to me. i am touched.
huiqing, we shall have fun again.
jeslyn, xiuling, honren, kaiheng, shengyi, i'm glad you guys were in the trip. you guys rocks !
wei loong, i thought of you during the trip. :)
all others : i'm back! in a piece! but i'm still sad. give me time to rest me mind and soul. for my absence seemed nothing to you.
deeply affected.