well, i can't say that it wasn't fun at all, but i can't completely catergorise it as fun, for the fact that i would have no more face to go back to kai wei's house as i had done something to obstruct the sewage system in the toilet bowl. HAHA... EMBARRASSING. i won't say what it is though, it's only known to besties.
this 5 day trip had been successful in lightening my emotional load and trauma i had suffered these past few days. i'm happy that it's getting easier each day to accept reality.
but i'm still deeply hurt. heavily wounded.
on the way to Kai wei's grandma's house, it's a 2 hour journey. i guess it's because of late-night chats on msn with patrick and other people, my shortened night-rest was taking its toll on me. HEADACHE and STOMACH UPSETS reigns my whole being. i'm sick. slept at 2.30am and woke up at 7am the other morning.
a throbbing headache persists.
it's pretty clear cut that headache takes a little visit to me it's because of you.
THINKING OF YOU MAKES MY WHOLE WORLD GO TOPSY TURVY.
i miss you alot there, but there's no reception. too bad. hope you understand. was hoping that you 'd miss me too.
last day, my grandfather took me out for breakfast. i didn't have the appetite to eat it, however, i just had the urge to spend a little more time with him. thus i agreed to go for breakfast despite my poor appetite. i was super touched that after so long, we finally have a chance for grand father-daughter quality time.
he stirred my drink for me, i suddenly felt a heartwarming gush of emotions surge through me. i cried at that simple yet touching gesture showing subtle hints of love and concern.
awww........ i love him so. though we didnt' even exchange conversation for more than 10 times from his house till singapore.
KINSHIP, VERY IMPORTANT.
i returned home these few days, i heard my brothers laugh at some things, i was wondering what were they laughing at. i asked them. they shared the humour.
finally i realised what i'm lacking : quality time with my family.
i'd been outside all the time, ever since my return from china. barely spending my night in my humble domain, where my comfort zone lies. no wonder i feel so insecure whenever i'm out or with strangers i knew for not even 10 years.
maybe i got to leave you.