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Friday, March 30, 2007

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hormonal activity has been a little aggressive nowadays, bestowing me with unsightly zits forming like dormant volcanoes erupting consecutively one after another.

how i hate pimpledays.

that's why i'm not taking photos at the moment for the fear that i, myself might be frightened like the effects of the new anti-smoking advertisement. i don't want complaints from my ardent readers.

my day has been stagnant, but i did not skip lectures today. sat with BFF jaclyn in geog class. she didn't do homework !!! HAHA !!! BAD GIRL !! U SO HAD TO STAND THROUGHOUT THE LESSON.. POOR THING ! emailed my buddy from china with hon ren in the computer lab today. he's totally hilarious la ! because he's just bad at chinese character inputing at the computer. CUTE LA ! -- gem from heaven.

after school went to northpoint to meet up with farahand jeslyn. get to us and nursery/primary school attitude. fancy us getting overly excited looking at barbie dolls/sesame street hand-puppet/spongebob letters/science kits/uno cards/monopoly/jenga/chess..................didn't get to see ginny though. sad case.

too bad i got to go choir for practise. i'm glad i had company throughout the tortuous 3 hour thing. and i had to come out of the place to see my favourite face ! Hon Rennnnnnnn !!!!!!

there we go mac-dwelling for out dinner eat-out, though mummy had cooked curry for tonight's dinner. but i shall be extravagrant to spend a little more time with you. I GOT MONEY WAD......... !!

(pei ru stop being cocky !!! @#$%^&*^%$#@!@#$%^)

so what will happend to chicken curry today? means brother bring girlfriend home to finish food up :) no worries !

( ya ya attitude right now)...

i've been conceited recently, and it's purely self confidence. too much of it though. but i'm not gonna complain. hehs. at least it does not affect me much. =p

{ go to hell } 10:09 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

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i'm good with my life and everything, i don't need people to subtly hint things getting better for themselves. i don't care. and i don't bother to. it just makes u retarded as a being and i think your actions are repulsive rather than impulsive. though i think both fit the bill about you. let's just start with the irksome attitude and expression on your sheep's clothing. u're a monster deep underneath. u're a disguised fiend, u're the phantom of the opera.

and this is a note for guilty(if u think u are):

if u think that that FIENd, IS SO INNOCENT, SO NICE, so everything u think is real, i would not stop you from being so superficial and shallow. =) maybe i'll just get on with my life.

---real irritated---

{ go to hell } 2:46 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007

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rantings of a grieved girl

sometimes we're good, sometimes we're bad.

sometimes u're repentant, sometimes u're just stubbornly slothful, indifferent, and

forever procrastinating.

i am putting in 101 % of effort in changing u to a better being,

apparently it's not appreciated. maybe u do but i don't see it.

i see you checking out another her.

i am green with jealousy.

jealousy an emotion i bother not to obscure. for i want it to seem prominent that i care.

all in all, i just have a question, do you really have feelings for me?

{ go to hell } 11:07 PM

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day started off on a bad note. and i wonder how long this unfortunate curse is gonna uplift it's mentally challenging spells.

first, there were no buses coming my way, despite my early arrival at the bustop only to find a slight jamming at the causeway. i'm LATE therefore. scurried to school with fear of meeting the big character, GANESH, as my skirt is not of appropriate length. taking my time to make sure i arrive school after G has left the podium, and is out of sight. yes i made it, but another incident bode ill.

two, betrayal from FAT BITCH ELIZABETH. need i make myself more clear? a day on drowsy pills had invited unecessary wastage of time having to see teacher about sleeping in choir practise. my fault for not clearing the air. but then again, i was TOO WEAK to do so. BRAINLESS COMPLAIN QUEEN, u hypocrite, NO WONDER U'RE LABELLED A

FAT BITCH. it's RIGHTFULLY YOURS.

three, constant neglience. i won't bother to elaborate further. claims about going home early to study for mock chemistry SPA, ended up in a pack of lies -- loitering around in northpoint, ended up sleeping soundly in bed. EVEN efforts to wake u up from your sleepy state turned to naught because of your 99.99 % reluctance to improve yourself. explanations? u've been robbed completely of that. I would hear nothing. NOTHING FROM YOU IS VALID. where is the change in you as promised?

four, all the problems were aggravated as i thought of yesterdays, gravational pull of emotions were so great, tugging so ferociously at my heart strings. how i want to be forever fifteen, when i could enjoy my golden teenage years without having to face the big 'O's. and enjoy my company of four, jia min, jing jing and kai wei. my best buddies accompanied by true friendship that woud last for a lifetime.

then again, if my life was stagnant at that, i would'nt have the chance to meet martin, hui qing, ginny and gang, jaclyn, and those who made a difference in my school life. or even my boy, who is the best thing that can happen to me in my stay in YJC though there were many occasions when i was agitated, still, i could not deny my best moments were spent with him.

my valentine's celebrations, new year celebrations, and many more celebrations which might take place in time to come, will become special not because of the occasion itself, but by the people. Oh, am i still gonna complain? i hope not :)

{ go to hell } 10:00 PM

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thanks to jing for introducing it, i've downloaded PICASA. collaging pictures is super fun. let's see.

what fun is it to have pictures by itself? collaging just makes events in a day look more consolidated and belonging... amazing! i would say. too bad PHOTOSHOP is out of reach.

lets just make do
:)

waiting for boyfriend to get himself done tidying while i wait and making full use of time doing tutorials lateinthenight. 2.30am i shall call. not to check up but to enjoy another 5 mins of quality time. :)

am i blessed or am i blessed? no qualms bout it .

i've just been told LOL meant not only 'laugh out loud' but also,

'LOTS OF LOVE'.

-LOL

{ go to hell } 1:58 AM

Friday, March 23, 2007

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day had been easy. beautiful timetable, making gratifying music in the auditorium with josh and kiara with our mediocre skills.

but i feel depreciated. i thought i AM special, but it just suck feeling like ordinary, conventional toilet paper which even most people of lower social classes are able to afford. i want to feel like high class soft, rose printed toilet paper. only people who appreciates and have the ability to afford can have me. my price is simple, let me state : love, concern and sincerity and most importantly, appreciation. if that's too much to ask for, please fuck off.

and my toilet analogy sucked. i know it. :)

feeling unnoteworthy, might just explain my cranky demeanor for today. solely for today i hope.

cracking jokes over the lunch table with kaiheng managed to lift up spirits, but after much laughing, i was back to SQUARE ONE.

i am wrathful, and you have just incurred it.

{ go to hell } 11:37 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

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this was what teacher showed us in a talk for assembly today. lame shit. hahas.

went to town after school with jeslyn and arisa. saw doraemon guitars !! absolutely cute la !

saw this cute thing on the streets, wonder what it is??

it's a sing post mail box !!!

hon ren and zhi qiang were boasting about watching 300 !! :( i can't watch yet. ITZ JUST A MATTER OF TIME.

I'M BACK IN PRIMARY SCHOOL !! ( in marina square)

then arisa, hon ren and i went for carl's jr craze !! :) cool !!

went millenia walk..

hon ren got the GOLDEN TICKET from his first WONKA BAR !!! congrats !! hahas!! look at his sickening face?? i shall have a wonka bar too !

secretly bought honren a wonka bar, but he found out. damn it.. :( totally thwarted my suprise plans. i should have guessed his head was way above the candy racks looking toward my direction when i'm attepmting a stealth-payment; unlike me, i could barely look over the shelves. no wonder he knew about it -- because i THOUGHT he could see me IF i couldnt see him. DARN !

in the end, i had him to act ignorant. so he just went, " u're up to something i don't know what. " and " can i buy a wonka bar before we leave?" and i had to act like a baddie, not allowing him have his wonka bar. LOL ! hilarious !

{ go to hell } 11:50 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

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swensons yesterday was salmon baked rice, fish baked rice and chocolate indulgence in chilled form -- ice cream !! . walked around bugis street. eating hawker centre food -- claypot rice, carrot cake, duck rice, ice jelly and grass jelly drink makes me forget those occassional tiffs in the very morning resulted because of a moment of impatience.

gratified that u made so much effort to make sure we're alright. made it a point not to pinpoint but to improve together. she is not an obstacle.=)

pure justification of us. :) loves.

can you feel e love tonight?

{ go to hell } 1:12 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

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went to watch dance works !! it was awesome. jaclyn was the third group. she did great! thumbs up! together with farah, jeremy and zahirah, we awed and critiqued the dancers, went to toyrus, ate at long john's for 2 hours because farah was a slow eatern and we were so on the dog having menstruation fact, of which many jokes we came up with minutes later . jaclyn joined later and shopped for farah's tights, looked around for a suitable shoe for me but failed to.

in the night went to borders to look around. i was stuck at the stationary corner busying being facinated with the array of colourful notebooks and boxes. missing hr, hoping he would come for the whole day.

wanted to eat mac donalds but i fell asleep in your warm embrace. too late for anything but fried rice, fish and chips and rojak near the neighbourhood. i felt happy when u are happy.

love it when our pupils just meet and say nothing to each other, letting time freeze right then, living in our own world of silence with gallons of love floating around, not being able to see it but feeling its presence would suffice. thank you, my couch potato.

it was an accident i understand. and even in the days to come, there would be more and more accidents like this. all we need is a little bit more of communication and understanding, giving and taking. whatever it is, i was so touched you singing to me that song. i appreciate your piggyback efforts to pacify.

you are a god sent jewel. i'm alice-in-wonderland.

{ go to hell } 11:37 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

>>> farah's last day

went to school late today, for the fear i had to go to serimbun camp by force. first thing i met up with the new 128 class people. cool. they were so nice. then went around with ginny and farah, opening of farah's present, she was so touched she cried. her goong soundtrack, a optician mug, a doraemon pencil. :) good luck in optometry girl!

get to kai heng and meddling around with the mini guitar model. just look at how 'rock' the cat has become after being touched up on its fur. boys, *shakes head*

then we waited so long for hr to finish his english essay. before we go to town to collect ginny's handphone. yay !! so fun !! but in the meantime, we went to mc donalds with cynthia and kaiheng to play poker. :) so fun.

in wisma, chat, played with playstation in the sony's showroom, PSP, after half an hour or so, finally it was ginny's turn ! woohoo ~~

rushed back to school only to find YJC'S jam and hop a failure. sad. poorthing.the place was merely an airconditioned big and dark room with a few pathetic groups of people forming circles dancing in their cliques with OGLs on stage having the time of their lives hopping around childishly throwing pices of shreded paper on top of each other , waving 2 or three lightsticks, thinking that it would liven up the atmosphere but it did not. i was so disappointed.

went to prata house. saw joel on the way. invited him there. i ate sardine murtabak and cheese prata. hr ate egg onion and plain. joel ate double egg and chocolate prata. hahas. cheap la ! better than casurina ! lol... kai hengt and cynthia came some time after. drank free soft drinks, played poker. winning $2.50 from joel and losing $2.40 to kai heng and kaiheng losing $1.50 to joel. me and hr still won 10 cents. haha!i had so much fun. so did hr. :) thank you.

{ go to hell } 9:58 AM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

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yeah !! i'm a slacker OGL !! cam whore gotta stop ! martin who never manage to get a proper face. he never knew what i meant by a proper face. maybe because "proper face" is not registered in his dictionary. it was a made-up anyway. his features are forever twisted and distorted. phew. took some time to get my proper face i expected. ginny, arisa. jeslyn and others wen t town. i also wanna go ! but too bad, can't, tied down by duties of which i did not perform.

irritated with bitches who act like they are some big shots in school. i'm not feeling your authority. i'm not gonna respect 'action' people.

{ go to hell } 12:14 PM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

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okay, supposed to go orchard with jeslyn and arisa. however over enjoying ourselves in Casurina has forced us to abort plans and go ahead with fun.

members: jeslyn, arisa, hon ren, joel, zhi qiang and i !!

we're damn big eaters.

joel: double egg thosai + plaster + milo dino

i : egg cheese + shared sardine murtabak + teh tarik

jeslyn : shared sardine murtabak + plain + egg onion +teh tarik

arisa : cheese murtabak + milky

zhi qiang : forgot !! haha

hon ren: plain + egg onion + cheese + teh cino

bottom line is, we ate alot !! hahas... and not forgetting jokes over the table. what kai heng play digimon under the table. if u don't get it it's okay, maybe it's too stupid only we would understand. haha.

then it was time to go orchard !! bought my mango top and my shorts !! yipee !!! ate an ice kachang on a cold day. KEWL..

peiru the bunny and hr the elf !! hahas. random disguise in spot light, searching for ourselves an alternate identity we are cute in. but i think my attempt was a disaster. more like a erm... casino bunny girl?? haha... nevermind, it was fun. hilarious day.

cried on the streets. don't ask why. emotional tendency down here.

{ go to hell } 10:21 PM