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Friday, March 23, 2007
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day had been easy. beautiful timetable, making gratifying music in the auditorium with josh and kiara with our mediocre skills.

but i feel depreciated. i thought i AM special, but it just suck feeling like ordinary, conventional toilet paper which even most people of lower social classes are able to afford. i want to feel like high class soft, rose printed toilet paper. only people who appreciates and have the ability to afford can have me. my price is simple, let me state : love, concern and sincerity and most importantly, appreciation. if that's too much to ask for, please fuck off.

and my toilet analogy sucked. i know it. :)

feeling unnoteworthy, might just explain my cranky demeanor for today. solely for today i hope.

cracking jokes over the lunch table with kaiheng managed to lift up spirits, but after much laughing, i was back to SQUARE ONE.
i am wrathful, and you have just incurred it.

{ go to hell } 11:37 PM

!about me

name:apple mei


wishlist
birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*

l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please

2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)

3.wait till i think of stuff

lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...


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!connections


martin di di (cutest guy on earth
alvin
anthony
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arisa
ashika
Brenda
cai ying
charmaine
chen wei
couz yee teng
Currina
debbie
deline
dinah
elvis
GERMS
ginny
han tiong
jaclyn
jamie rea
jessica
kai ngee
kiara
kin yew
nicholas lee
nigel
noozlie
roshilah
sann
sarah
Seng kang
sharon
suhailah
thiam chye
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yong cai
yu jin
zhi qiang
zhi xiang
zhu wen
!credits

i live in my lackadaisical world i call my own
but only to be tied down by shackles of education which obviously suck big time
living with complexities of life which cannot be revealed and told openly
living in self denial and drowned in my everyday lies
unhealthy living dead i call myself
i just want a simple life with a boyfriend
the desire for a simple want purely makes my life difficult to those who knows my secret
with that i rather live life a living dead.
i no longer reveal the zany side of me
maybe i lost it along the way
on my pilgrimage to maturity
i yearn for someone to open the door
one of where i came from
to find bliss once again
out in the open lawn