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something bad happened tonight. i swear i never want to hear it ever again in my life. and not that i'm pessimistic, but i feel that i can never be able to laugh again.

my cries can never be audible to normal people, and what i'm experiencing is not something normal people will go through. it's serious enough to force me to contemplate suicide, but i'm sensible enough to know it's not gonna help the situation. i hope my dad will make a pact with me to jump off the building together though, because he is my only worry.

i hoped i hadn't retained, for time is very important to me. i hope hon ren will reply my messages now though i know he is asleep. i just talked to him. he sounded very nice. he tried to provide a solution to it, it helped. but he hadn't replied. maybe he's gonna shut me off his life from now onwards.

u might wonder what is so serious. try pointing a gun at me but i still won't say. because i think it's a disgrace. unless i feel like sharing. i start to hate myself, for being so superficial. i hate myself that i think everybody in the world is nice. now i realise, it's just the surface. i failed to see the fugly side of humanity, utterly hideous.

i hate money. money makes people change. it alters the benign nature of humans, turning friends to foe, family to enemy. i t impacts greatly on the way people perceive of things. it is the most influencing thing in the world other than yawning. let me reiterate, i hate money.

i don't hate them for saying such hurtful things. they are not wrong. their assumption isn right either. maybe they shouldn't have accuse people. maybe they should have just discussed.

i miss my home, my maid, my rooms, my car, my toys, my piano teacher, my primary school, my life. it's now so out of reach. it's a distant memory fading faster than i imagined.

now i stay in a house, my mom, a storeroom, a toy car, notes, no piano teacher, YJC, great friends but life has no substance.

i can see myself in the near future struggling to put on the extra pounds rather than losing em'. i know what i have to do. i must do.

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i really enjoyed myself today, all special thanks to ginny, farah and arisa for making my day. of course, my effin-hilarious sweetheart what i call heart-throb of YJC who always either make me swear at him or make my wanna just pinch his tender cheeks affectionately when he melts my heart by doing those little silly things little boys do.

although i hate to mention it, jeremy did contribute to a little laughter for today. by harmlessly bitching behind my back, tellin' ginny and announcing to the world i call my hon ren so lovingly that it sounded full of sexual innuendos and a trailed off with a seducing quality. THANKS FOR THAT. OH!!! .. and and and .......i also got to laugh at him for not passing his geography, math and blah blah.. he's a perfect target for sadistic people like me. :)

after school was eventful. arisa cancelled off her piano lessons while i stayed in school reading up on novels and listening to what people says. I LOVE MY HON REN SO MUCH ! he's so sweet to skip a portion of his lecture to pass me his jacket when i'm shivering like crazy in the library. OKAY, i admit i made him do that anyway. HAHA !!!

at ard 5pm, ginny, arisa and i set off to bishan to watch a movie with farah, but can you believe it?? THERE'S ONLY 2 MOVIES ON SCREEN. such a loser theatre. so we abolished the plans for watching and so while arisa had jap classes, we couldn't bear to starve our poor stomachs anymore, we settled for a humble meal at Long John's :) lets not mention a weirdo staff there who made sure every other table is spick and span. we joked he should get the cleaner of the year award.

hon ren came some time after. i'm glad he came :)

and we had secret recipe cakes/brownies/lagsagne and chatted and laugh our asses off with plenty of gossips, jeremy monkey business and just plain conversations of which the content may be forgotten but never the moment of entertainment.

going home with farah was a total joy after that arh.. i swear, honren making stupid magic tricks --disappearing of his thumb-- mocking hon ren a phedophile ( get to farah labelling everyone a phedophile nowadays, it's a trend recently i don't know why) by showing a little kid magic tricks, laughing at farah for falling for hr's 1 +1=3 trap and farah's '' you want to see me run? very fast . " witty , uproaring lame statements. HAHAHAA !!!

ALL IN ALL, i just have one confession to make. I'M REALLY THANKFUL I MET THEM. the boisterious ginny, the amusing things farah always never failed to introduce, and arisa's playfulness so influencing, the guys joel, kai heng, zhi qiang and hon ren forever laughing at stupid things which were never funnier than their laughter itself.

i don't know how to express my gratitude towards their graciousness for accepting me into this clique in the first place, thanks for the ten thousand reasons u guys have for accepting me into your life . but then again, being you guys, no reason is needed to be your friend, because i just am :) its just so great to know that.

I LOVE GINNY, FARAH AND ARISA. and a pure platonic love toward kh, zq and joel. true love towards my hon ren.:)

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scarecrow.. WHOO HOO ~~

EE... HE'S MUST BE THINKING OF FOOD...

MANNA-LICIOUS ...

okay, have a nice day..

name:apple mei


wishlist
birthday's on 21st oct..thanks people..*smirks*

l.MP3--at least 4gb and no CREATIVE please

2.a brand new wardrobe( packed with new clothes)

3.wait till i think of stuff

lastly, a stupid idiot 24 hours available for me...



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